Moments Of Indulgence

urghhh!! I HATE..I HATE..I HATE....

2010-04-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

Well lets rewind the time starting from tdy till my last post...

TODAY~~25/4/10

urgghhh....had a lil fight wif Gummy Bear...huhu.. i dunno y but i feel like he's trying to avoid me.. i hope its nt true.. i do really hope..hmm..but he owaes gt sumting to cheer me up..hehe..hw sweet is he..the more i didnt see him..the more i realise hw muchi miss him n love him..hehehe... den jz nw at werk..ARGGGHH!!! Lagi stress!!! TBA beb..[tk boleh angkat] haiyo....dun wanna tal bout it lah...too stress oreadi..mane keje,hwks n tmrw a darn fucking test in which the teacher didnt teach at all..jz show the slides of which sentence to highlight and worst! i dun have the book...*F-cube*...hehe

YESTERDAY~~24/5/10

worst ever!!!!!May n me did sumting totally wrong at werk..urghh!! DUN WANNA TALK BOUT IT!!!!!!! den i go back to amk den slp..too tired..oh ya..i said "love u" to Sham..hehe..

THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY~~23/4/10

Cik Yah & Acang bdae!!!....wohoo!...had a small celebration but filled wif kecoh ppl..haha..den gt 1 baby soooo adoringly cute...i forgot the name...but sooo cute wen she laughs..hehe..den..off to slp...

thats all amegos!!...btw...im totally in love wif Sham..i duno y i miss him soo much...maybe bcz we tk jumpe for mre than 1 week oreadi?...hmm..maybe..hehe..aite2 lads..i wanna slp..too slpy n tired oreadi..blergh!!..hoping tmrw will be a gd day..

Muahs to all my readers!...bye!!chiao!!

adios.amegos.peace

AGAIN!!! & WORST THIS TIME....

2010-04-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

well u all might be wondering wat isit all abt kn?kn?kn?...dun deny...i noe u all thinking wat is in my mind and wat i am going to say... XP

well...as expected and as wat i said in my last blog..that i will surely bump into Shafeeq..well the feeling is true n i really ALMOST bumped into him...it was like very close sia!!!...like i was standing beside him...kiwak!! jantung btol2 mcm nk tercabut sey...boleh jadi gila woo!!!...hahaha...den i smiled at him..and guess wat?...nope..he didnt giv me that particular look...he jz stare blank at me..(idiot! buat penat jek aku senyum..pki energy tau tu...hehe) den we walk off...he go his own way n i go mine..without even turning back..haiz... =.="

den the worst came...i hate this part but i have to write it down..cz its the oni way tat i wouldnt have to keep a revenge..oh ya..his name is hirman or herman oso i duno hw to spell ar..but he really gotta chg his attitude man..he SUCKS!!
so...this fucking teacher tat i once told u abt came to my class jz nw {the teacher who memperkecil-kecilkn bdk2 ite simei}..1st thing in my mind..."can u get the fucking outta my class u moron!! I Hate U!!!" den he started talking abt the camp that i have to go...which will be nxt wk at s'pore discovery centre...[i dunno y they chose that place..stoopid ppl..] den i asked him 1 question..
"umm...sir..can i know why is the camp compulsory?"...den he nag and nag and nag....bla3..talk crap...saying he wanted the ITE Clementi student to be the best behaviour wen we merge wif other ITE's in CCK...then i gave him a look and i sengaje [as in totally & btol3 sengaje cz i wanna see his reaction] give him a body language that i'm not interested...den he asked me.."so,which sch are u previously from?"
den i say lah"i was from greenview sec sch den to ite simei den nw here lah..so it was like frm east to west..y?"
guess wat he said?.."no wonder...u look so not interested..i find that all simei students are so lethargic..they have a reputation rite?"
i said"what??!!!!what kind of reputation?"(darah dah up!!)
he said" well u noe those bad ones....bla3.."(i cant hear bcz my ears are blocked by the wild running imaginary images of me killng him..sumbat byk2 tissue pat mulut dier n kentutkn direct at his face)
den a new gal jz entered my class,Syaz,also frm simei dah naik darah jgk...she banged the table and said loudly"NO!!...."
then he said"prove me wrong..make sure u come to the camp..i want to see ur faces there.." (ewah2...cabar aku nmpk!!)
i said.."ok sure!..u will definitely see me..i'll prove u wrong sir!!"
wah....teros darah bdk2 yg frm simei in my class terus sume darah up sey...tkleh tahan...den wen he gt out oreadi..Aidah said"kai..amcm pat camp kite kene kn dier cukop2 ar..aku pon tkleh tahan ar ngan dier.." & in my mind was..baik ar..ni aru members setia simei...WACAYASAMALU AR!!habis lah dier nnt bile camp..cnferm kene bahasekn ngan aku n the gang cukop2 nye..tk leh angz sia mulut mamat tu..mmg2 nk kene satu hari ar!!...

well guys..thats all yg interesting that happened tdy...hehe..oritey..nites human beings!!

adios.amegos.peace

2010-04-21T23:15:00.002+08:00

well holla amegos!!
hehe..wondering wats wif the "amegos"??..well lately i've been watching shows related to italiano or spanish dances...and the way they speak jz caught me..hehehe...i love their dances..so graceful yet SEXAYYY...

oh well lets get back track to my life..haha..so,gd news 1st..well...i got CERTIFICATE OF MERIT!!!!wohoo...i gt this letter on mon..and it says im the top 5% in my cohort..wooweee... gerek perb??...i tot at least i would have been the top 10% or at least 20% ar..but top 5%???tk sangka my otak ni geliga semacam..wakaka!!!

n bad news...haiyo...Cit(my classmate) is going for NS soon in june..darn..will miss him loads man..jz tot of having him my 1st guy bestie...tk dpt lurh..hmm..kesian me..susah nk dpt fren.. XP

oh ya...i keep bumping into Shafeeq sey..n i wonder..why everytime he sees me..he will "bukak kepak"??...why eh?...hmmm...den tat time he give a look at Cit..wat he think he jln like tat i scared ar?..tk igt ke wat i did to him?..haha..n wats wif looking at Cit smcm?..jeles?..jalan dah..he's nt even my bf lah...pejek...mentang2 kite close must be bf/gf ke?..merepek nye olang...hehehe...n i gt a strong feeling tat tmrw im gonna bump into him again..urgh!!but at the same time i felt like saying "HI" to him..yalah..walaupon mcm the feeling marah is still thr..perasaan lame tk bole hilang...i still kinda like him..and in my heart was saying... "feeq,what is past let it be past lah..we be friends aje lah k?..tknk bbl tkpe lah but at least a smile will do..."
hmm..shall i say that to him straight in the face?..i dunno lah eh..

k lah..da lewat malam ni.. saya ingin tidur kerana saya sudah ngantuk dan kelopak mata saya sudah berat..tidak dapat ku terdaya untuk menahan lagi.. (cedebah..bahase melayu nk baik jek..haha)

oritey den mate..nites all..gd luck wif life..stay positive n cool...chiao!

adios.amegos.peace

The First Day of Sch PLUS Monday Blues...

2010-04-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

oh well..tdy was the 1st day of sch..and i was late by 10 mins..hehe...sengaje pon..malas ar nk gi orientation2 ni sume..hahaha...
1 thing..ITE College Clementi really SUCKS!!to the core lar wei...geram dohh..ade ke patut gt tis 1 freaky teacher memperkecil-kecil kn org2 ITE College East??
buto sak perangai...den ade hati nk besar2 kn skola yg tkde pape+bahang+kecik tu.. PUI!!
den ternmpk n serempak wif Shafeeq Yunos..ALAMAK!!tu lgi 1 prob tat makes me dun wanna go to sch..perangai...
den the CA said tat i have to buy new uniform cz thr is changes to it..FUCK LAH!!duit kene kuar lagi..95 bucks plk tu..blm include baju P.E..mampuih aku...class funds n buku blm include tu...bankrupt lah aku tis time...haiz..

but look on the bright side lah..i got to meet and make lots of frens...my closest current fren is Rashid..haha..his nick name Cit..[like my ex sey...Baby Rash..nw i call him Acit..haha]

k lah tats all..to be continued eh..sorry..da ngantok gile ar..my body pon aching..bye ppl!!tc!!

Adios.Amegos.Peace

What have I done...

2010-04-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

Well peeps!!im sorry didnt update much lately..bz werking n meeting ppl lar...n oso prepare for sch tmrw..hehee...well lets start wif the good news!! guess what??..i got 4 points for this semester GPA..wohooo!!! (3 cheers for me!!hip-hop hurray!!! x3 ) not oni tat...i get into ITE College West Clementi...wohoo.....no more waking up early..haha!!..AND..on July..my sch will be moving into ITE CCK and so as Sham!!..yey!! tat means i will be in the same sch as him for the whole yr!! weee....

Nw lets move on to bad news...the sad thing abt me going to ITE Clementi is..there will be a GIGANTIC,ENORMOUSLY possibility that i will bump into Shafeeq Yunos..[fyi..my ex..feeq..rmbr?] hmm...mampui lar aku.. mati-mati... WORSE!! my sch starts tmrw!!!darn nervous sia!!!!hahahaha...and i dun feel that im ready yet..hehe.. XD

okok..lets back track to the title above..lemme tel u what i have been doing since i last blogged..hehe.. starting from today..we countdown k..haha..

On the 12th of April 2010...
feeling very sleepy n sian plus angry..gt lah issues wif my dad n sis..IDIOTS..my sis is such a lazy freak..wen i got hm FROM WERK N FEELING SHAGGED..my dad asked me to clean the kitchen..den jemur baju..mcm wth??..tk sempat mandi pon sey..jamah mkn pon tidak...den my sis ade hati tanye i got bring hm chocolate ke tk..den i was like in my heart saying"fuck u lah!dah lar dpt gaji tk beli pape for family..mknan pon tidak..brg dapur pon tidak..apelagi bayar bill rumah..sial ar tu kakak..nasib baik dier dpt adk penyabar..kalau dpt adk yg tk penyabar..dah tentu2 muke dier berlebam ar..." den i looked in the kitchen..MAK OOOIII!!!punye lah berserak...pinggan mangkuk sume tk cuci..den i ask my adk ar if she gt go werk or nt jz nw..if she does..i understand..TAPI she's nt werking tdy..terus blh rase darah up up and away sey!! PEMALAS NK MAMPOS! dah tk keje den tk uat keje umah..wen aku tk keje tk uat keje umah tau pulak bingit..marah sane sini..anak cibai btol ar tu pompan... (sooo sorry for the vulgarities..emotional ar..hehe) nw i finish jemur baju jek..malas nk kemas dapur..let her clean it..idiot...

but 1 thing i like abt tdy is i got "bapak angkat" oreadi at werk..hehe..his name is MYO..[pronounced as MIO] he's a Mynmar but speaks perfect english n he's sooo cute...at 1st i tot he's not married..skali dah kawin dah..alamak..pecah sey my heart..haha..da ade anak pon..3 lagi dohh!! haha..but tadi wen he say to one caddy.."y?..got problem isit?...she's my daughter lei.." Ahahaha!! kekek siot!! terus tersenyum2 kambing plk ni minah..hahaha...

On The 11th of April 2010...
hmm..i went to werk..got bitten by darn fucking lots of mosquitoes which are stripy black n white..n now my leg has ALOT of "bintat" n i cant wear skirt to sch tmrw..haiz...
not oni tat...jz nw at werk..wen Ester was jz off taking the puffs..sekali......... "POOOOFFF!!" the place black out...teros panic sey..haha..den called for Myo on the walkie-talkie[ 1st time using it..hehe] den my face btol2 mcm nk nangis sey..cz wen Myo came..rain starts to pour..huhuhuhu.. that means..nnt cnferm ramai org n im alone wif a blackout!! arrrggghhh!!!
but i managed to pull it myself..selamat..fuhh..haha..

On The 1oth of April 2010...
clean up nina's hse early in the morn..den went to werk half-day..n get paid on the spot cz i yg mintak cz no tambang alek..wakaka!!

On The 9th of April 2010...
went to ITE Bishan to temankn Raidah to her sch to ask for a pathetic signature n stamp..haha..den teman her n the mum to jalan2 at AMK..den back to nina's hse..ntg much..

On The 8th of April 2010...
1st time go to werk frm Teban hse...oh well...i reach thr early..like per normal..den play game while waiting for Ester...den after werk..go home..

On The 7th of April 2010...
went to ITE Clementi wif Sham to register for my upcoming sch..and was disappointed by the admin ppl..darn fucked up sia their system of werking..den went to ITE Dover..intend to buy Sham's sch pants..but the shop not opened..waste of time..den went back to clementi to transfer a bus to got to beach rd to make his name tag den had a loooonngggggg walk..imagine walking frm beach rd to bugis to city hall to marina to clarke quay den back to raffles jz to find a bus that will directly go straight to my hse...hahaha...such a loooonnnnggg walk which caused my feet to have quite a huge blister..hahaha...

On The 6th of April 2010...
did ntg..jz laze at hm and watch tv n clean the hse n cook..tats all...

thats all folks..really tired nw & my back is really aching ar..soo..bye!!tc!!

adios.amegos.peace

The Things That I've Been Doing...HAHAHA

2010-04-05T21:17:00.023+08:00

Okok..lets start wif the most fun part..one fine day..if i'm not wrong on fri..oh ya!!it's on GOOD friday...haha..a very good one indeed..i met SHAM!!!wohoo..after almost 1 mnth tk jumpe..at last jumpe jgk..haha..1st i met Raidah at AMK..[at first plan to go polyclinic for check-up tpi tutup dah..pe dah..]hehe..so..den we chitty-chatty at AMK MacD while waiting for Sham..den take a stroll in AMK Hub..den buy a small cake for Sham..reason??[i forgotten to bring sham's bday pressie] =.=" den we meet Sham..at first planned to go changi village..but then Raidah dun want..den Changi Airport..ntg to see..at last, P.Ris Park..[the one in which i have gone into mre then 100 times in a year!!]..hahaha...
den we took ALOT of pics..hehe..
[photos is published as shown above]
den i went hm at AMK..sadly Sham didnt sent me to the doorstep..he jz said gdbye..no hugs or kisses..huhu.. :(

ok..chg story..nw abt Acit..[my ex..A.K.A Baby Rash??] well..tat time he said he broke up wif the gal but nw i tink they patch up again oreadi..[for i duno hw many hundreds times oreadi..haha] he sms-ed me..called me..crying..haiz..i nw understand why ppl hates to hear ppl talk wen they cry..cz u wont understand a sgl word they say..hahaha!!! tats why i kept quiet wenever i cry..hahaha!!!okok..serious2..he said to me tat he wont love another gal animre..bla3..then he say he give up in life..i was shocked lah..yalah..tkkn psl 1 gal whom u love u wanna kill urslef kn?..b**oh nye org..den i give him space..but still making sure he is save n not doing stupid things..i asked him to have a company n nasib baik Kai[my twin bro..haha..name??Khairil..close to my name huh??..haha] was thr wif him..i trusted Kai since the 1st time i meet him..i jz have a strong feeling that he's a gd man n will be a great fren for any of his frens..his frens will be very lucky to get him as a fren..oni Jae je BODOH tk tau menilai nye..sampai hati kutuk n tuduh sembarangan den brainwash her frens to hate him too..but i dun..im not under her curse..i noe deep down in me tat he's a good guy..
okok..back track bebeh..haha..so..jz nw in the morn i talked to Kai asking if Acit is ok or nt..n if he's sgl or patched back..den he said he duno..but wen Acit talked to him..it sounded like as tho he's patched back..n my reaction..oh well..that particular guy never learns his lessons...hahaha!!

nw..back to Sham..well..Sham lately intro me to a game in Fb called Bejeweltz..n guess wat??..im soooo addicted to it that i played it everyday!!nw i've hit the 10K award..wohoo!!nw i wanna hit higher..hahaa!!! Nt oni tat..even in my phone gt a game sumting similar to it..so..cn say lah every hour im playing it..haha..tk jemu beb...tk jemu!!hahaha..

okok..thats all folks..thanks for the time..& to my new reader..Raidah..happy reading n thx!hahahaa!!!!bye!!

adios.amegos.peace

Cant Get U Out of My Mind..[tdy oni..i hope]

2010-03-31T00:33:00.002+08:00

well humans..cnferm u all thinking that im thinking of Sham. My gummy bear rite??..well its not him..
i dunno why but im thinking of Syafiq Salim..the hot guy i once used to date remember?..the one tat brings me to Night Safari on my 1st date wif him..i dunno y but his face keeps appearing in my mind..nt oni his face but his voice..his smile..everything lah..every single memory of him jz came flashing in my head thru out the day..despite me trying to think of Sham..Fiq will still appear.. i still remember abt my dream of him..haiz.. i think i missed him loads.. yea.. i missed him..cant deny..
oh well.. i still gt 2 pics of him in my hp..n i dun wanna delete it cz it contains lots of sweet memories..
gosh...i jz wished we cld meet up n have some talk..to lpskn rindu lah katekn..hahaa...
btw ppl..dun tell sham tau..if not... i TAPAK-TAPAK all ur faces..
buahaha!!

okok..gtg nw..too slpy...nites ppl!!
WISH ME LUCK FOR MY RESULTS!!!

adios.amegos.peace

HOLLA!!

2010-03-30T00:42:00.003+08:00

hey ppl out thr who is responsibly reading my blog..haha!..[pe jek ni minah]

btw human beings..i gt bad news abt myself..well last few days i gt blood in my pee n the nxt day i went to AMK polyclinic[darn queue..imagine me frm 930 to 1215 in the poly..gosh] well..had fun in thr..but bad news too..the doc say i gt infection INSIDE nt outside my vaginal area..n she say its quite severe one..haiz..in my head was like"haiya..terkopak lah aku nari.." haha... den she say must "come back nxt wk ok..need to do another check up ok..."in my mind"terkopak lah aku..habis lah gaji aku bulan ni..ni $10 lah balance..mati..." HAHAHA!!

oh ya..im meeting gummy bear this fri..wee...at BUGIS lgi..hehe wif raidah..den we will go changi beach..weee!!!!happy nye!!! im gonna giv him his 2 aeroplanes..yeyey!!tksabar nk meet him wif his new specs n gendut..hehe
gummy bear domok!!!
hehe...

tats all lah ppl..cannot tahan liao..nk layan Mr Taufiq abt his prob..n later ask Ris abt it..so concern abt them..haiyo...den fix his nxt appointment wif me for gym training..haha..

aite ppl..gtg..nites hor..

adios.amegos.peace

the day out wif raidah..hehe..

2010-03-25T22:24:00.002+08:00

well tdy randomly i asked raidah out..haha..
we went to vivo arnd 3 plus close to 4..
we had a tough decision on choosing which aeroplane model..haiz..
den we finally had a decision to buy 2 aeroplane..1 big n 1 small...hehe..
den we went to Harbourfront to buy the wrapping paper at "The BigBookshop" but den we realised that thr is no scissors n scotch tape..haiya...den we rush to "Daiso" intended to buy a box..but then no size..haiya!!!! den we hav lots of trouble choosing the paper bag for him..after like 20 mins instore den we get wat we wanted..

den we go to raidah hse,[1st time woo!!] haha..we go thr wif 1 pathetic purpose..to write a card for sham cz we dun wanna waste money buying pen..hahahaha!!
her hse is very warm..i like..n her family..like wow!! i can feel the love of family bonding in the air once i stepped into her hse..i jz love it..altho nt so nice but very cosy..love love love...
den i head back hm..getting ready to get scoldings frm ayah cz tk masak,tk kemas..tk cuci baju..wakaka!! but in the end ayah tk marah..wee!!..happy2..nw i drinking my orange juice happily wif my eyes half open n back ache..haha..n oso thinking of sham..hw sweet of him to buy me a present in medan..soooo sweet!!!
oh ya btw,...he called me BABY!!haha...feel like in cloud nine nw..i told raidah abt it n she was shocked..hahaha!!! she say we will be a weird couple if me n sham were to be tgt..haha..
but i like the way hw mysteriously sham expresses his love towards me..hehe..LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

orite2..tats all ppl..muah muah muah..

btw yaty-yaty-yat yat..wish u get well soon..i wanna go out wif u n go gym..hehe..
nites all!!

adios.amegos.peace

introducing..my gummy bear..Sham..hehe

2010-03-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

hey ppl..long time no read my blog eh..hahaha.. lazy lah to type2..hehe but nw im typing cz im bored n i've gt ntg to do plus im sick..urgh!.. but nemind..as long as my brain n heart still works im fine.. btw ppl.. BEWARE!: THIS BLOG IS GOING TO BE DAMN LONG..... okok..lets start wif my gummy bear..hehe..he's nw in Medan doing his jungle trekking n he lost his specs.. omg.. kecian my gummy bear.. haiz.. cnferm u all wondering hw we two stay in touch eventho we are very far apart rite?...hahaha.. thx to the inventor of sms & global auto-roaming..hehe.. nw..its been 2 weeks tk jumpe dier.. he's coming back on this 24th..den he needs another 2 to 3 days of resting at hm & time for family n stuffs...so..i guess we will be meeting arnd like on the 29th or in that week jgk..so..that means.its almost 3 wks tk jumpe..wow..lame eh?.. nw he jz msged me saying that he's otw back to the other hotel to rest n eat..i told him to eat alot cz i want him fat..i dunno y but i want him to be fat..haha..he's cute wen he's fat..LOL! and..ever since i met him..i became fat too... hahaha...wth??? i've gained weight much faster wen im wif him..guess wat..i've reached my ideal weight of 45 kg.. cn u believe that??i've been trying to achieve it since sec sch n now??..."BOOM!" 45 kg in a few weeks after knowing him..haha.. COOLIO!! now..i have a permanent werk...wohoo...at SICC..near lornie rd whr all kubur lame cina is resting..i mean everytime im going to werk..i have to pass by all the graveyards..nt scary at all.. imagine a gerl walking in,passing by all the graveyards in 630 in the morning..haha.. my boss thr really take care of me..mkn minum free dohh..den nina is my supervisor..darn strict lady...slp oni time keje..den i jaga depan she jaga blakang..do stocks..hahaha... n theres a new gal, Zila..at 1st Ester,my boss, was fond of her..but then..ltr wen she start werking..she's a person that is slow..which ester hates the most..n she's much slower than me as nina said...n nina said tdy she wants to test her trust worthy-ness...cz nina found some missing cash on mon after she came back frm taking puffs..but she tk ckp ar..she dun want to accuse anyhow..so tdy is the test..i cant wait for the results...oh ya..tdy nina is also going to put pressure on her to werk..so she move fast..alot of bad things i heard abt her oreadi..tk sampai 1 week keje dah kene maki rabak by Ester..aku dulu pon tkde lah kene rabak mcm dier..haiz..hopefully she will be good in 2 wks time cz she's gonna take over nina spot..haiz.. okies..thats all for tdy ppl..thats all of my interesting,happening things that happen to me.. bye..u all tc hor..mmmuuuuaaaahhhh.......

adios.amegos.peace

life of ups and downs..

2010-01-17T01:47:00.002+08:00

hmm here i go again writing down my feelings and thoughts..haha..sungguh the tk perlu..haha

well..lets basically start with what happened recently..

well i fought wif ris on msn..as expected..both kpale batu and me wif my total ego..i really mean darn effing ego u noe..if im angry wif sum1 i wouldnt care abt the world or myself or worse other ppls feelings..as long as i get to say what i think would be ok for me..see..thats a darn big ego rite?..haha..told ya!..then after that i duno y i just dont feel like saying sorry..i feel im nt ready yet..cz im the type of person who owaes says sorry sincerely..i will never say sorry in a sarcastic way unless that person deserves it..hmm..see,thrs another effing big ego side of mine..haha..cn say after breaking wif my baby rash..i bacame an egoistic women..i duno whr tat came frm..i tink..its thru the bad experience i've gone thru..oh well..it sucks to live as a women u see..hmm...

back to topic,initially ris says sorry 1st..but then i told her the truth y i dun apologise..i guess she understand..hmm..kalo tk phm pon tkpe..aku tk kisah...well..im soooooooo used to ppl hating me..oh well..cn say the whole class is nw against me..haha..hw that came abt..i dunno the main prob..i dunno if tats me,my ego or mahirah's fault...hmm...lantaklah..i really dun care abt sch animore..all i noe is i came to sch to study..and ace my exams..nt make frens..haha..[tat is totally wat i said to myself on the 1st day of sch] and it came true..haha..funny huh?..start sch wif no one..ending sch wif no one too..cool huh?..

talking abt things coming true..a dream of mine came true..that is abt wan..i dunno y..hmm...but im still hoping the dream abt me talking to syg feeq came true..im still looking forward to talking to him..i missed the way he talks,the way he stands..and the way he treats me..haha..he's a funny guy..he a great guy too u noe..the gd thing abt him is..he teach ppl in a hardway..he tot me ilmu sabar thru breaking up wif me..haha..tats the cool thing..i didnt expect he wld teach me such a gd moral lesson..no one has ever tot me in that manner..tats y the impact of me remembering him is strong..he did a great deed for me..well..lets move on to next topic..

well..tats the downs of my life for the past few mnths..nw is the ups..haha..

this part is all abt me n sham and a gal named raidah..

well..me n sham is getting closer as days pass by..hmm..altho gt abit gado2 syg..we still "love" each other..raidah..hmm she's a sweet young lady..same age as mine..in ite bishan in biz admin course..she stayed in amk..we met like last fri..for the first time..haha..she tot i was taller than her..haha..impossible!..but it really shows my skills of photography is improving..alhamdulilah!

she den introduced me to her fren named athiyah..[hope i spelled correctly]haha..we den proceed to west coast..the MacD was darn lawa lah...seriously...the beach sux but the MacD is great..i dun feel like getting out wen i was in the MacD..haha..den yestd we met again..but w/o athiyah..we met in amk..den sham sent me to rumah nina..but b4 all tat happens..wen me n him were otw to amk..we took the bus to save money..hehe..we enjoyed our 1 hr plus ride soo much..we luaghed alot and talked alot...haha..we make faces at each other..nt forgetting the hugs..haha..i like hugging him..it feels sooo warm..its like the 1st time wen i hug baby rash wen we were in love..full of warmth..it really gives me the confidence and security..cn say im in love wif him but i just dun wanna confess it..im waiting for him..hehe..i wanna see hw long cn i last like tis..the gd thing is we didnt want to celebrate anything if we were to be tgt..except bdae tho..haha..hmm..tis is the secret part..if u read juz keep it to urself tau..dun tell any1..kalo tk..tabok ar!!hehe..

well..eventually wen we reached pat bwh blk nina..we had kisses..his lips was sooo soft..omg..i immidiately cair sey..tros steam..haha..in my mind was like.."carass me..carass me.."haha..but i couldnt give him my sexiest kiss..cz gt ppl pass by..busted!..haha..den wen no one arnd.we kissed again..tis time lgi best..he hugged me soo close to him tat my pussy was rubbing against his dick..[habislah..lgi steam lah aku..]haha..and..he start touching my breast..my mind says"yes.."but outside i say "no..."haha...temptation sey..den..he took my hand and put it at his dick..apelagi..i rub lor..otak dah senget sey..steam gile siot..hehe...[notty2 me..]so...after that we went apart..i go up..he go to yck mrt..hmm..missed him..n in my head was all abt his kiss the whole night..huhu...the lips..oni if i get to kiss again..haha..

aite2 ppl..i gotta proposal to do..monday dah nk kene pass up siot..still havent do gantt chart n schedule seh..gtg ppl..bye sume..syg krg...

adios.amegos.peace

the day out to gym wif Qiqin....[30/11/09]

2009-12-02T22:31:00.016+08:00

the day out wif bro!![08/11/09]

2009-12-02T22:22:00.008+08:00

STRIKE OUT!!!!

2009-11-30T10:08:00.003+08:00

strike him out bebeh!!!
who??
A guy name Syafiq Salim Lor....
He's outta my list...
buahahahahaha!!!!!!!

So,nw...left with Muhd Shamssuzaman...hmm...
conclusion..????
i dunno...he's a gd guy..met him once oni...tu pon tk smpi 1 hr..
wakakaka!!...
fell for him?...i guess so..i dunno..haiz..
hmm...we r still talking tho..even after i said i liked him..
[tu cume testing jek eh..hw setia a fren cn be]hehe...
:)
so,...ntah lar..

den..lately kn,my dreams sume nye weird2 seh..
[not kotor ones lah]
lately kn..i dream of the future..wat is goin to happen..scary seh...
hmm..i duno ehk..

oh ya..lastly tat i wanna post abt..
the number 18!!!
this no. has been freaking me out since the start of my bday...
this no sort of brings bad luck..
the no. 18 stands for..ME BEING ILL..I WILL HAVE AN ILLNESS SOON..
i dunno wat the illness will be but most prob a CYST wld develop in me..
its sort of a "keturunan" thingy...my sis gt it wen she was 18..my cuzzie gt it wen she was 18..me??..i dunno..i want 19 faster..tkt seh.....i dun want operations!!!!!

Peace.Love.Serenity

rain that makes me smile..

2009-11-19T17:31:00.002+08:00

today..did ntg much..i'm juz loving MDP mre as days pass...

but..i didnt came for our project presentation in the morn...i cant..gt my own reasons..

things are getting worse for me nw...
ppl in the sch has realised that im getting much mre quieter..i dun talk much recently..dun hav the mood to talk..cz their topic is jz the same..over and over..all abt boys..bf's..i hate it wenever they talk bout tis...cz i hv totally ntg to talk abt..n i dun like to interupt them talking..so,i jz kept quiet lor..den they tot i gt probs..haiz..hw cn i ever explain it to them..

my mental wellness is getting worse...im nt studying..i kept thinking..thinking of wat oso i dunno..but most of it was abt my past..esp..shafeeq..i do really miss him..sumtimes i jz wished that i cld bump into him n talk to him..but wat shall i talk wif him abt?..den..dere goes syafiq..n sham..but i cn put them aside...no probs..
i think..yestd n today i hv a major mental breakdwn..yestd..i forgot to zip my skirt..i only realise wen mai tegur..den i was thinking.."MAK OOIIII!!!TADI KN AKU DARI JRG..APE?..TAT MEANS AKU NAIK TRAIN..NAIK BUS TK ZIP SKIRT??MAK!!!MALU NYE AKU!!!PATOTLAH BERANGIN JE PANTAT AKU..HAHAHHAA!!"
tat was yestd..today..worse..i tot i wld come for the 2nd lesson..so,i came at 915..skali..i came to class..no one was there..i was wondering lar...den i look at timetable..and i said to myself"btol perb class..tpi asal tkde org eh?.."so i go wondering the whole of that 5th lvl and 6th lvl searching for my class..tpi tkde so,i waited till the nxt lesson lah which is 2 hrs later..haiz..so,i went to eat at cafe 2..den lpk pat lvl 2 nye study corner..skali..abt 1hr 15min ltr..the geng came..den i asked..whr is the last lesson held...they say "the same class lor"den i said lah"mane ade..tadi aku dtg 915 tkde org pon..class kosong seh.."den jae said"mestilah..class start kul 10 tau.."den i was like "ehk?..iyeke?"i looked at the timetable and there it was..stating the class start at 10..BOO-YAH! i said pelan2 ar"darn..bodoh nye gal..ape kes ngan aku niari ni??"..

thats all..hope u had a great day not like mine..hehe..
goin off to Capoeira nw!
Chaos!

Adios.Amegos.Peace

Hello AGAIN!!..haha

2009-11-16T17:11:00.003+08:00

hie there..
[warning!!long blog coming up!!]

lets start..its been very long since i last blog..so..dah forget skit..hehe...

hmm my life nw quite sux in sch..the only days i'm coming back hm early is Mon & Fri's..haiz..den the modules nw..HAIYO!!non-stop projects which leads conflict among me n my cliques..[ape lah nasib..]den..only one thing gd..nw i hv a CCA..at last..and im gonna stick with it till i graduate..wanna know what is my CCA?..CAPOEIRA[a brazilian martial arts..] Weee!!!

nw..to my personal life..hmm..its difficult..Fatin mcm break her promise..wen she is in Vietnam..promise to jage Zaki wen come back sg lar..nk kemas & jage umah lah..tis lah..tat lah..but end up..NOTHING..(only tat she's werking nw,bt that doesnt make any diff!!) asik2 me..yg kene ulang alik teban & tamp..owaes me!!irritating sia..den wen i didnt kemas umah..she pandai plk nk marah org..bile dier tk kemas org tegur skit je melenting..haiz..[why do i hv sisters..why not brothers which are way better and understanding???]Cobaan beb..but Zaki nye perangai is nw improving..he seems to understand my sotuation and is helping me out alot..LOVE U AR BRO!![3 cheers for him!!Hip-Hop Hurray!!X3]

LOVE life?....hmm..i dunno eh..nw the only one that i like is Syafiq Salim...he has all the qualities that i needed...oh ya,abt the date in Night Safari wif him?..haha...damn great fun!..he gt hellish scared..haha...he gt shocked and shouted so0O loud..and me?..biase ar..ketawe kn dier aje lah..hahaha..he's sweet..oh ya..he nt only knows AtiQ..but also Muhsin[kwn rapat rashid -.-' & he knows Arfian..]wat a total small world..hw much smaller the world cn be?.. kk..back track....me n Fiq hv been cntacting for mre than a mnth nw..on last Sat he treat me to a movie..crite paranormal activity[not that scary ar..only last part]..i feel bad every time he treats me...yalah..im nt his galfriend mah...i shld hav paid for myself lor...nt only he treats me for a movie..he oso treats me for pastamania...Waduh...lagi serba salah...dah lar mahal...haiyo..nw i really owe him big..hmm..oh ya..i rmbred..tat time on his bdae..me n Lil Missy Ris Nurul gt him a shirt frm Recoil..a black shirt..and u noe wad??we sngaje pick for him which was at the display patung..haha...it looks nice on the dolly lor..so we pick..hehe..[soO LAME of us..haha]den..after he wore it..he said to me tat our present hit the rite spot..as in..he really wanted a black shirt..and wanted a recoil shirt..haha..BULLS-EYE BABE!!haha.. kk..back to hw i felt for him..[wah..jauh seh pergi my flash back..haha.. XD ] he is a sweet guy..i duno if he romantic or not lar..but for sure he do hav a darn gd voice which makes me melt for him much faster..nt only tat..he gt bods..he gt hearts..he is patient..he is funny...well..simple to say eh..he's a complete set of wat i needed in a guy..[nt forgetting he wears specs sumtimes!!hehe..I LIKE!!]..(ya ampun!!merepek aje aku ni..haha)

klah..enuf is enuf eh gal..dun write too much..org malas nk bace..haha..aite2..see u guys soon.. oh ya!! I MISS MY BRO ANGZ..[esp BangKai,Sas,Shaz and Abg Adk Yat!]
bye u guys...cya soon yaw!![insyallah tkkn tulis lagi..haha..kidding2]
chao!

btw,thx Fiq..and yes..i'll wait..[muktamad!]

adios.amegos.peace.

I'M BACK AGAIN!!!

2009-10-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

OK..BEWARE..CZ THIS BLOG GONNA BE DAMN LONG...

well lets start with hw im coping..hmm..i'm doing quite well tho..
GD NEWS!! my gpa..i gt 3.8!!! 3 straight A's and 1 B..isnt that gd?..[jz as wat i was expecting]
den..NO MORE BABY RASH!
umm..no sch= boring 4 wks of staying at hm..w/o jln raye..*blergh!*
not werking..lazy lar..
back to the no life "hse gal"..doing all chores a mother would do... -.-

this is the great part!!:

hmm..i dunno hw many dates i hv went in these holiday season..its like a routine for me,whenever theres a holiday..must go dating![sialkn??]

1st up was Fahmie..[not hensem bt gt hearts]thx to Sastra for giving my no. to him w/o my permission..haha..we talked and msged each other everyday..he's a damn workaholic! he works 48 hrs..and sumtimes up till 3 days if he gt OT..[mcm wth kn?]den one fine day we meet up tpi tk smpi 30 min dah chow cz he gt to go to his aunt's hse..antar obat..he's quite big in size..almost look like sas..hmm..den my ppd gone finish and he tot i dun wanna cntct him afta meeting him..n he go merajok..n OUTTA MY LIST..

2nd was HOTTIE AIZAD...[hensem! hot! and gt hearts too! only a lil bit rude wen bad mood]
OMG!!!i really mean it..OMG!!he's damn effing hot lor!!1st we met at tamp..den dunno whr to go so go to lpk infront of Nyai's hse...we were very n extremely shy..haha!!den after 2 days..we went to sentosa n swim2 there..tats wen he took of his shirt!!![OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!!HOTTIE OTW!!]haha..we swam..rub each others back wif sand den massage him cz he was aching frm all those workouts in gym..*hehe*i like us in the water..bt hv to get out cz getting darker..hmm..den,he treat me to dinner at the foodcourt infront of harbourfront..den went hm...i guess,rash was jelous at tat time..muahaha!!
bt nw,we didnt cntct each other bcz of sumting..cant tell..personal..
so,conclusion?...OUTTA MY LIST

den..nxt was Taufik..he's jz pervert![no good!!] rejected N OUTTA MY LIST..haha!

nxt up! luqman n harith[jerks!!]..haiyoo....these guys was my mission actually..i was tasked by Lil Missy Ris Nurul to korek sumting frm them..and i did..and WTH wen actually luqman really fell for me..but not for me..i dun like him..[tkde feelings pon]and gotta noe he's in the same sch as me..WTF!hw am i gonna face him ltr in sch?..FUCK!..but nvm.i'll ignore him..harith is the mission guy..he's such a jerk..playboy n a big liar..hope he will learn his lesson soon..
So,BOTH OF THEM IS OUTTA MY LIST.[not cntcting anymore..haha!]

ok..nxt..Hakim..[sweet but very busy]a guy i gotta noe thru tagged..alar..he jarang online but we r still cntacting..thru msn plk..still pending..

LAST...a guy named Syafiq...[hehe..cannot comment yet..haha]gotta noe him frm Lil Missy Ris Nurul..syafiq was a bestfriend of ris's "boyfiee"..named Hazwan..kk..intro..Syafiq jz gt into army and he's in combat medic..nt gonna say which camp!! and....he noes attica!!my classmate a.k.a "the makcik in class"..wth..and indeed,she is his most bestfriend!!!wtf!..not again..i dun wanna go another relationship wif sum1 who noes my classmate....haiz...but gt gd news!!!

ON 09 OCT 2009..I'M GOING TO DATE SYAFIQ FOR THE 1ST TIME AT NIGHT SAFARI!!wohoo!
i deserve a 3 cheers..[hip-hop hurray!!x3]haha.. xp
cant wait 4 2mrw..hehe..still pending..

last word..tues and thurs are my tv days..Soo,dun disturb..

[anyone wanna sponsor me tickets to impak maksima the musical??i really badly wanna watch!]

adios.amegos.peace

wee...

2009-08-25T14:40:00.002+08:00

hmm..today my 1st day of puase tau..hehe..

the last few days tk dpt puase sooo....enjoyzing..weee..

hmm..now hungry lei..haha..tpi still cn tahan..

just nowkn..i kemas2 umah..den dgn semangat dtg skool jln kaki bwh mrt track..haha..dah semangat giler..hua3..

kk..now in osa..boring..niari cepat abes..n realise myself improving in my studies which is a very good and extremely good sign...wohoo!![baik arh eton!!]

kk..fatin is coming back soon..tat is tis fri..hmm..looking forward to it. ;)

[cz i cn get back my prepaid and my new bag!!wee..gerekkn??..haha]

btw tadi sempat bilang jae abt rashid..what he said and even jae is angry with him..i dont understand why but i noe she is really angry with him..*kening naik*..

wat to do kn..as we all say"u got to do,wat u got to do..'haha

[tkde link sey..haha XP]

so now..i'm off..

adios.amegos.peace

Back in singlees..hahaha...

2009-08-24T12:46:00.002+08:00

well had a slow emo talk wif rashid the day before puase..

den dere he goes..

saying the word"break up.."and plus3..he mentioned"please don't wait for me..i will not go back to u coz our relationship now is just like my past.."

well..i cried and cried for 2 days..(nasib tk Puase kalo tk batal woo!!..haha)

felt bad..sad..but at the same time happy cz i'm back in action as a singlee..wee.. :)

btw..slamat berpuase!!

adios.amegos.peace

i'm back!!

2009-08-21T10:17:00.002+08:00

muahaha..funny kn me??..skejap2 nk masuk,skejap tk nk..wakakaka..hehe..

i'm sooo the unpredictable..weee..

well..i'm just in a desperate mood to jot down my feelings..my journal is not arnd wif me..so no choice lor..kene type pat blog lei..leceh tau..haha..

kk..back to my story..

well i'm currently sad ar..well..rashid baby wanna break up wif me..i sad u noe..but wat to do kn..

haiyo...its abt me lar..my fault lar..i'm being too paranoid wif myself that org lain pon jadi my punch bag..but,i just wanna let out my feelings pe..[only that its at the wrong timing]*blergh*

u noe wat??at this point of time,i think its the best that i have a break coz i need to sort myself out first..i just need time for myself..lagipon rashid baby id busy wif his werk,frens,dota,games,soccer..well..i guess its the best we have a break..yeah..rite..its the best solution..

*wateva lar eton...lantak ko lar dear..asal kn ko tk menyesal sua..*

adios.amegos.peace

a sad news to all of you...

2009-07-27T09:25:00.002+08:00

so sad to say that this is my last posting in the blog..

its not that i cant blog[well sememangnye tk pandai blog pon..haha]its just that i dont like ppl to read it..i feel like theres no privacy..

i noe i can private it but for me its too troublesome and still if i private it there will still be someone who will "psycho" me to un-private it..[irritating ppl..hehe]

so now i have found a replacement to it..

it is my beloved journal!!wakaka..[old school babe!!jgn main2 tau..haha]

its better coz i noe who will be reading my writings and what are they reading only wif MY PERMISSION!!

btw ppl..theres another sad news that i want to share wif u all..

now kn..the line that i'm using now dah kene potong or in english kene cut-off..understanding-understood?..haha

and now i'm unreachable..not even thru msn cz my lappy will be in jrg and i'm gonna be in tamp..

i noe u guys cnferm2 suro aku beli ppd card baru kn?..tu no problemo..tpi krg kasi aku duit ar..hahaha!!

too bad aku ngah koyak ar..pape kalo aku ade duit aku beli ar den aku bilang krg my new no. k?..

ayah plk mcm biase uat hal..ckp tkde duit..[mcm $*@L..] cannot say it ar..nnt baby rash marah..hahaha..

k lah tats all my beloved frerns who is reading this blog..cant talk more cz using sch comp ar..hehe..for the last time..i'm saying BYE2!!love you all soo much!!

ADIOS.AMEGOS.PEACE

A Moment To Remember..180709..

2009-07-20T07:52:00.004+08:00

ahaha..soo long tk blog..hahaha!! today i skip OFC lesson for the 1st time..haha..it's becoz i forgot to take my sch shoes at tamp..and malas ar nk bangun siang2...haha...[nw at teban lor..]

kk..mesti u all wondering wats with the date kn?kn?kn?..haha..
surprise!!
its my 1st month with Baby Rashid lar...tat time lupe nk blog about it..hehe..STM lar katekn..hehe..
kk..tat day starts with me being totally frustrated with him lor...he told me to meet him at 12..and he said he wanted to fetch me from home..in the end,i was waiting for him almost 1 1/2 hrs sey...rabak kn?..haha..1 hr i waited at hm..1/2 hr waited for him at mac..in the end i was the one fetching him from tamp mrt station..perb ar ni mamat..hahaha!!!

then i punish him by asking him to finish up my coke..haha..den we ate old chang kee den proceed to bugis to book tickets at Iluma den went mkn at mac..planned to mkn at pastamania..tpi i kesian kn him,so tk jadi lor..hahaha..Iluma is the worst place to catch a movie..their service sux man! den after watching Harry Potter,[and was upset by the ending]..i proceeded with MY plans..went to esplanade..see firewerks..[kn romantic kn?..ngah mnthly-vesary den ade bunga-api..hehe] den chilled at rooftop..and Baby Rash is soo jakun..tk pernah naik atas sey dier..haiz..so..i proceeded with my "romantic plans"..haha!![which cost no money at all!!wee..] i chose a place for us to sit..its the best place ever lar sey..got view,scenery,cn hear music,got wind and the atmosphere is very nice...wah!!wish cn go there again..haha!!den i asked him to drew something on the floor..[ok lar..acceptable..tk lawa jgk..hehe] den i drew an "i *heart* u" which is way much nicer than his..hahaha!![NO OFFENCE BABY!!HAHA!!] den as couple's pass by us they see our drawings and most of them make a look at us and i think they were thinking"romantic kapa ni couple.." or maybe "apa sia ni??..nk step romantic jek.." haha..but i dont mind..as long as i'm happy and he's happy with it i'm OK!

den we spend our time together..biase lar say i love u here and there..a bit of muahs..den went hm coz he cannot alek lbt nnt kene locked out..haha..den he sent me hm..and we otp..its like the whole day we r together sey..haha..COOLIO!!..

and that's all..bye2...

baby..thx for the day..i really enjoyed it..hehe..altough u spoiled the day..haha..
i juz wanna thank u for the 1 whole month of love we shared..and I REALLY LOVE YOU WAHAI ABDUL RASHID BIN RAHMAT!!

adios.amegos.peace

a week..

2009-07-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

on monday...
went to sch..den went to p.ris..met baby..and he sent me hm..

on tues..
forgotten wat i did..haha!!

on wed...
went to jae's hse i guess..met baby..den i forgot..haha..

on thurs..
went to jae's hse again..forgot 4 wat purpose..haiz..

on fri..
went to huda's hse do project..den went hm 4 a while den went to jae's hse..met baby..and went hm..

on sat...
went to p.ris park to celebrate jamil's belated b'dae..played some games..had fun...den try to stay awake while brushing baby's hair..den head hm...

on sun..
went back to teban..do work..kemas here and there..den accompany dad to vivo to rendam kaki..haiz...den ate alot..had lotsa fun wif zaki..den went back..kemas sikit..den went to sleep..

[to my baby rash..i'm sorry if i had hurt u either intentionally or not..im really sorry baby..i promise i wont do it again..i oso promise to change for u... I LOVE U BABY...]

0ne Fine Thursday...

2009-07-02T16:44:00.006+08:00

hmm..i'm missing those Cik Yah's Angels moments..hahaha!!!

Haiz..today i did ntg except sing like hell,eat,drink and lappy..haha..not to forget tv too!!wakaka!!

kk..i'll blog bout yesterday k?..hmm..yesterday did ntg in the morn till afternoon except tat i was cleaning and cooking last minute before meeting Rash baby..[wee..]den met Rash baby at p.ris..den we went to E!hub jap..walk2 here and dere..played arcade,[this is the fun part!!]i beat Rash baby in 2 games!!hahaha!!puas hati ar..[di Golden Chance..hehe]1st was some sort of hockey game..i tink the score is 2-1..hahaha!!den i beat him in a motor game[my fav]i gt second and he is thrid..well he said it was his first time..but i dont care!!haha..at least i gt beat him in something sua..hahaha*evil laugh* [Rash baby,too bad ar u lost..haha!!dont majok k..i'll let u win nxt time..hehe..]

den walk2 in p.ris park..sit2 and chat2..told him jokes and he laughed like hell!!wakaka!!he laugh smpi tkde suare sey..hahaha..[rabak tuh..fuyoo..haha]den ate at kfc..den he sent me to mrt..but b4 tat he gave me 10 bucks..and i was like paisey ar to take his money..rase mcm btol2 terhutang budi sey..at 1st dont want to accept..but di atas desakkan baby..amek jgk..hehe.

last words of the day..am i gullible??[pls anwer me if u r reading this..thx!]

[btw..thx baby..i love u soo much!!!muah]

adios.amegos.peace

haha..shopping wif Nina!!

2009-07-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

missing these moments man!!haha..all the lil' missy's..hahaha

let me start off by telling u wat happened in the day..kk..i planned to wake up early to do my morning exercise..but as usual..sejak tngl teban ni asik2 bngn lmbt jek..dunno y..haha..den gt msg frm Nina and Rash baby..as usual..he will greet me "gd morning cyg.."hehe..[i like..haha] den Nina msged me if i wanted to go jln2..so i agreed as there was ntg else for me to do..haha..so..thr i was..rushing in the hse,hopping here and there like a squirrel,trying to keep the hse clean before going out..[its a routine..]den..again..i was late to meet Nina..haha..planned to meet at 1 but i came arnd 130 i guess..haha..
met at CityHall den went to Peninsular to accompany her buy a camera bag..and as usual lar..i'll be the one choosing for her..haha..and its a beautiful one 0k!!gt heart-shape lagi..haha..den walked down all the way to Bugis and went to Bugis Village..she wanted to buy shirts and cap for her new hubby..hmm..so again..i'm the one who chose for her...den,by tat time my kaki was blister-ing..haha..painful nk mampos!!den Nina bought for me sch shoes as my b'dae present and it cost $10..ok lar..alakadar jek..i dont mind..den she saw me limping..haha..dah sakit giler dah kaki tu..haha..went to Mphosis and both of us bought slippers..i gt the ribbon one!!haha!!den went to mcd and ate..Nina's nt eating cz she's dieting so,i ate her large fries and a mcChicken..haha..ngah lapar giler dok..the ting tat shocks me is i managed to finished it all up!! In my heart i was like"woah,gile pe aku?..bnyk siot aku mkn..tpi tkpe ar..mcm mane bnyk aku mkn pon aku tk gemok2..haha!!"

den Nina introduced me to her fwen name Cartini..i mean..seriously her name is spelled like dat..de..i was like"ok cn"..hehe..and we went again into the Bugis Village but tis time i wore my new slippers!!haha..[tk tahan sakit ar..hehe]den..they shopped for bags,shirts and jeans..and i was standing one side cz it was really tempting for me..so,its better not to look at it..haha!
den i received msg frm Rash baby..he said he's having a big headache..i'm worried for him at tat time being..i mean really sey..[rash baby..do take care of ur health aite..i'll try my best to take care of u..i love u baby]
den wen i gt hm,i tot Ayah dah alek,nasib blm..hehe..[lucky2 me!]den Zaki said Ayah alek lbt and no need to masak..so i jz went to sleep..hehe[sleepy head!haha!]den arnd 7++ Zaki woke me up cz Ayah ajak mkn luar..and i was like "wat??..im still full sey..but nvm ar..jz go n eat..for the sake of Ayah..haha!!"den we went to kedai mamak and i ordered nasi goreng..and i was jeles cz Zaki hav papadom..[wateva they spell it..haha]and biase jgk i asked him for 1 lar..tk kasi sey..den i asked him for half den he giv..i was like bdk kecik sey..i said"yeyey..dpt papadom"haha..den i finished the food faster den Zaki and i said to him"aku habes dulu..bluek..ko kalah..ahaha"really like small kid sey..den happy sey cz Ayah kasi kite minom slurpee..haha!!best woo..haha..den at hm..biase jgk..msn..tkde keje kacau org..haha..

and dats all i did today..haha..nites!

adios.amegos.peace

There She Goes..I'm Not Gonna Miss Her Soo...

2009-06-30T00:50:00.003+08:00

this is the most sweetest moments that i had wif her[Fatin my sis]gd luck in Vietnam yaw!!do tc of urself down dere!!dun forget to eat!!!i noe u gt lotsa money dere..dun lie to me if u say u hve no money..haha...bye2 sis..cya in 2 mnths time!!

Hmm..hw shall i start..cz somebody gonna read this blog 4 sure..and i have to be formal tho..haha..
okok!!i got i dea!!lets start wif wat i did frm the sun starts to rise!!hehe(beware!gonna be a long one!!..haha)

ok..early in the morn arnd 7++i was awakened by Kecik boncet[my baby cat]haha..she meowed at my ears..Directly plk tu..irritating sey..den i grab her and hugged and make her into my pillow..[dah geram sgt..]haha..den she pleaded to let her go..haha..den i let her go lar..and continued sleeping..hehe..[sleepy head..haha!!]

Den!!again my sleep was interrupted..haiz..tis time by my Rash Baby..haiyo..he wished me gd morning..tats sweet bt..i was sleeping!!haha!!and Fatin asked to reply..[alamak..ni part yg malas sey..haha] so i replied to him telling him tat i cant contact wif him for the time being cz my sis wanna use the phone line for a moment before she going to Vietnam for 2 mnths..WTFISHES!!
ahaha..den i went to leep again..bt this time only afew minutes cz Nyai[nenek] dah bising suro bangun..and its like only 8 in the morn sey..haiz..bt i woke up at 9..haha..bluek!..

den after bathing..my habit in tamp jz wont go away..tat is reading newspaper before eating..i read the malay newspaper article abt husband's responsibilities during his wife giving birth..haha..its quite saddening tat some women are doing it alone..u noe y?..cz their husbands are bz sleeping while their wife fights for life and they have to suffer alone cz they dont want to wake their husbands up..and tats wat i call "jeritan sepi"...[screaming in silence]i read abt it and i was like "kiwak!!ade jgk org2 mcm ni dlm dunia ni ehk?..ish3..tk patut.."hehe..

bt b4 tat i heard ayah and nyai talking bout money issues..i was wondering..ayah kept on saying that he dont have enuf money for us..i wonder where his money go sey..kk..its true tat he have to gave it to Fatin bt tkkn smpi i dun hav money 4 sch purposes sey..rabak tu..den bile i want to search for jobs..nyai tk kasi plk..irritating sey..den..wat?..i hav to go for hunger strike is it?..klakar kapa!!!mcm mintak kene maki aje ar ni bapak..irritating nk mampui..[oops..nt suppose to say tat..hehe..terlepas dok..haha]kk.tis is jz a luahan hati ok..i dun really mean it..its jz tat i kept on thinking whr his money has gone...me n zaki dah stop mintak dier duit pe..we jz ask for sch allowance..AND my sch allowance is getting lesser day by day..and zaki is getting more!!WHAT A FAVOURISM!!not only that..i cant go to Thailand bcz of tis too..F*** lar..
Fuuuuh..lega hamba rasenye...haha...

kk..nxt..during sending my sis off..i actually wanted to hug her jz nw..bt i couldnt..cz im afraid tat i wld cry..and i noe her well..me and my sis is jz 2 yrs apart..but we have this "spiritual" connection..i cn feel wat she is feeling and she cn feel wat i am feeling..sometimes we even have the same tots..haha..coolio!..i dont want to hug her cz i noe i wld cry..and if i cry she wld cry too..soo..i jz step fierce ar..but in the end..she noes tat i wanted a hug frm her so,she hugged me..i was really close to tears man..haha..and she kissed me on the cheeks 4 the 1st time in our entire life sey!!bt too bad..its been in my habit since young tat if someone kisses me,i will surely wipe it off..haha..i dunno why..haha..so..den..after sending her off..back to tamp to take my things before alek jrg..haiyo..tiring u noe..otw to tamp..i cried in the bus..cz i noe she's crying too..i jz cn feel it..den i tried to imagine wats going to happen in the nxt 2 mnths..WAH!!!like hell..im gonna ulang alek tamp..simei and teban!!kiwak!!!Fuyoo..only god knows hw i feel...den abt kakak lagi tk balek2..i'm afraid she's running away again cz she gotta know that her bill is $200++..and the F*** thing is..its under Zaki's name..i cn bet tat she's nt gonna pay 4 it cz she dont have the money..and THIS is 1 of the major reason why i wanna work..cz i know i'm gonna need alot of money..definitely she will ask me to pay some..[sedangkn aku ngah ade difficulties in paying Fatin nye bills and oso my barang2 skola and aku rase aku tk mkn in sch 4 like three weeks to pay her bills..ni perangai dah mcm sial ehk..tpi sabar dok..COBAAN!!haha]den i have to cook meals for ayah and zaki before drg alek..wah..i'm back to my suri rumah days man!!it sucks!..to the max tau eh..tpi ape nk uat..dah nasib badan..hmm..

den bile smpi umah jrg..did some cleaning..den temankn ayah buka puase pat jrg point..den i didnt reply Rash baby's msgs cz i was engrossed in thinking wat will happen to me..too engrossed..haiyo!![sorry baby..i didnt mean to..if u marahkn me..i'm really sorry k..dun angry2 k?..I LOVE U..and i cant wait to see u..hehe..muah!!lovies!!]oh ya..Fatin was lucky cz she get to meet Rashid before going to Vietnam yesterday..she was the 1st to see..den followed by Shrek..[urghh..tat inspector nenek..haha]den no one else..huhu..[baby..im missing ur hugs..]

Den i became a match-maker in the night..haha..it was antara Sastra[my "scandal"]and Ris Nurul[my GF for life..haha]i let them talk to each other after knl2kn each other..den i went to talk to Rash baby..expressing all my love for him..haha..while waiting hw romantic cn he be..hahaha...a test tat i'll neva forget..i want to do tis since i started having guys..tpi tk dpt..haha..so..he is my victim!!1st victim!!haha..[no worries dear..no harm shall i do to u..hehe]*evil face*hehe..den talked to Fatin on Msn abt ther area there..the weather and wat time she will be waking up and start working 2mrw..[hmm..caring jgk aku ni ehk..haha!!bluek!]
and tats all i did in this one whole day dated 29th june 2009..
~the end~

P.s i love u Rashid..i really missed u nw..i was really hoping u r by my side jz nw when i cried..tats why i msged u...i miss u...

adios.amegos.peace

My Love..

2009-06-24T20:26:00.007+08:00

The blue clouds they spell out your name,
The darkest night,you shine in them..
I LOVE YOU
and I cant imagine
If you're not here with me..

It's early days but I know for sure..
That what I feel is real sincere..
Let's make this the best time of our life,
To be my better half..

I'll give you my world,
and I'll treat you nice,
Coz for my love,
I'll sacrifice..
Anything I could..
Everything I would..

MY LOVE...
You're everything I could ask for..
Your smile makes me happy..
Your tears makes me sad..
And I know for sure,
This is the best feeling I ever had..
YOU LOVE..
Brightened my dimmest light,
Make my heart beat faster than before..
And as days pass I'm gonna love you more..
And I promise....

The blue clouds they spell out your name,
The darkest night,you shine in them..
I LOVE YOU..
And I cant imagine,
If you're not here with me..

It's early days but I know for sure..
That what I feel is real sincere..
Let's make this,the best time of our life,
To be my better half..

I'll give you my world,
And I'll treat you nice,
Coz for my love,
I'll sacrifice..
Anything I could..
Everything I would..

I wanna say something to you..
There's no one else that swept me off my feet like the way you do..
And all I want is you..
I promise that our love will shine may it be with you..

MY LOVE...
You're everything I could ask for..
Your smile makes me happy..
Your tears makes me sad..
And I know for sure,
This is the best feeling I ever had..
YOU LOVE..
Brightened my dimmest light,
Make my heart beat faster than before..
And as days pass I'm gonna love you more..
And I promise...

this song i dedicate it specially to my Rashid baby..cant wait to meet u again..=)

adios.amegos.peace

Happy+Sad=?????

2009-06-24T01:10:00.004+08:00

my sis out in cooking..haha..haiz..2dae dere was ntg special tat i did..except tat i help my sis out in the kitchen..haha..lame!

den in the afternoon whr all the things start to happen..

i went on msn..and saw Shafeeq online..so..i tegur dier ar..den at the same time ask him if he's free in the night cz in my mind was if he's free i cld take my headband as well as meet Rashid skali..and possibly Jae..luckily he said he was free till 7 plus..so..i was excited ar..lagipn dah lame gile sey tk jumpe Shafeeq..i missed him loads man..but as a fren je ar..but things start to change wen he said tat the meeting will be our last..i was sooo damn super sad sey..tats wen my memories wif him starts to play in my mind..my eyes were welling up wen he apologised abt all his wrong doings and so..i was really close to tearing man!!

den..as i talked to him thru msn..i realised that im late to meet Rashid!!haha..i was super late man!..haha..i promised to meet him at 6 but in the end i met him close to 7..haha..i really missed him..i wanted to hug him at 1st but paisey cz his fren was dere..haha..den i hurried down to Shafeeq's hse to take my headband..i tot i was late..it was himwho was late!!as usual lar dier..hmm..sampaikan Rashid dah habis mandi pn dier lom turon2 lagi sey...but i waited for him no matter what..i really wanted to see him at tat point of time..and afew minutes after Rashid arrive,Shafeeq pn turon...bt he didnt realise me..so i tegur him 1st..i jz love to call out his name..i dunno y...but as he said..life has to move on..huhu..my eyes are tearing nw!!..dun ask y..i dunno..huhu...den i tot it'll be a short meeting..but i cn see frm Shafeeq's face tat he's having alot of prob already..so i stayed wif him and Shikin..[his X1 bike] den all of sudden Rashid,Jae and Din came frm the back..Rashid was polite tho..he introduced himself to Shafeeq..i like tat..hehe..=p

nw im feeling bad cz i was soo engrossed wif Shafeeq jz nw tat i forgotten abt Rashid..alar..its jz tat i missed him lar..and i pity him..kesian dier..hutang bnyk..i feel like helping him out but i have no money...i felt soo sorry for Shafeeq..and nw he wanted to change his bike cz he said terlalu bnyk kenangan dlm motor tu..and i totally agree wif him...i really missed Shikin..jz nw wen i saw her..huhu..mcm nk nangis jek..tpi tahan woo..

den i send Shafeeq to the mrt interchange..and said our last gdbye..while walking tu,deres lots of stories we share..cant tell u..sowie..personal..haha..den..i wanted to hug him for the last time tpi he said no..cz i belong to Rashid nw..WAH!!pecah hati dok..dah lar he dont want to be my member..fren2 pn tknk..last hug pn tknk..sedih woo..nk aje i cry pat interchange tu..but tahan sey..my eyes mcm tk tahan airmata den 2 drops came out..fuh..

den i ran to Jae's hse cz i do really need support frm Rashid at tat time..i noe he's searching for me..but i..i..i dunno..no words to describe my feeling...bile msk je pat umah Jae..i saw him..he was rather looking a bit furious..but he tried to hide it..i cn totally see it..at 1st i lied to him bout whr i send Shafeeq to..but i admit at last..i dont want to lose him plk..cz he's a nice guy and shld nt to be treated badly..den i hugged him..it really soothes the heart ache tat i was feeling..im glad tat he was there..

i love u Rashid..no matter wat it is..my life is now wif u..i hope u forgive me for lying jz nw...im soo sorry Rashid..i love u..and i will always miss u..muah!

den me and his members including Jae played in the playgrnd..hahaha..tat was enjoyable..dah lame sey tk main playgrnd..haha..bt i didnt play to the max tho..cz it's jz me forcing myself so tat his members wont feel janggal towards me and i dont wanna be like his ex..den at 10+..they sent me hm..in the train..i cried thinking bout wat shafeeq said..it really hurts me cz i cznt be his fren..he's such a nice man..and i dont think he deserves a bad girl..i hope he will have a happy life ahead and bertemu dengan jodoh nye secepat mungkin..and i reached at jrg east arnd 1130 sia!!luckily sempat naik last bus..fuh..and dats all..

adios.amegos.peace

Phew!!

2009-06-22T20:33:00.006+08:00

anyone wanna blanja me go to this exhibition?..i want it badly..huhu..

me wif mr Trex..haha..

a pic of akak candid..haha!

what a day man!!hahaha.. 2day i woke up at 930.den proceed to my mission in finding a part time jobs..haha.. i went wif akak ar.. 1st was giant..den science centre..had lots of fun there..at the same time,i took a brochure on the da vinci code..haha..den went hunting jobs at GV at jrg pt..den alot more tat i cant remember..haha..
den i met a friend of akak as well as acang..his name i forgot ar..[STM!!]haha.. den went back hm..eat my sushi.. cant believe that i jz finish rounding jrg pt searching for jobs..it was tiring ok..haiz... now..for the 1st time in the entire mnth..this hse is mine!!im alone nw!!and im happy bout it!!haha.. so serene..soo peaceful..sooo lovely..haha..

btw..rashid..u are sweet too my dear..take care tau..i miss u..hehe..*blush2* haha..kk..bye!

adios.amegos.peace

Its All About Rashid..

2009-06-22T02:15:00.008+08:00

our first ever picture together...

oweik!!haha

hey there people reading my blog..haha..

im extremely happy now cz Rashid is now minee!!hahaha...

bout Shafeeq??..well,i take his words..since he wanted to be a member only..so i let him be..and afew days later that is on the 18/06/09...i was Rashid's!!haha..everything happens super duper fast sey..it's like lightning gitu loh..haha...

kk intro bout him..

hw i get to noe him?:-thanks to Jae lar..bilang dier suro cari mataer den introduce me to him..haha..den exchange numbers..

why am i attracted to him?:-he is always dere wen i needed sumone..and he is faithful..[tats wat i noe frm Jae who's my classmate as well as his 1st ex...haha]

-he cn totally accept as who i am..i told him bout the incident bout me and shafeeq..he was shocked at first but then he counselled me in a very good way..tats gd though..

-he is a lil childish and totally into sports..tpi badan tk 'kong'..hahaha.

-lots more lar..too tired to type sey..haha..

wats his age?:-20 tis yr..

his birthday?:-21/06/1989

whr he stay?:-p.ris..forgot wat blk..haha..

his interest?:-games and soccer..[to the max punye...]

too bad bt thats all i noe ar..more info..still on going...hahaha...

btw..to my Dearie Rashid baby...

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!

haha..i noe u will be irritated by me cz i jz cant stop myself frm wishing u birthday wishes..haha

its jz becoz i cant find u any presents..so..a thousands wishes frm me is the best resolution...haha[tipu sey a thousand wishes tu..haha]

but luckily i cn spend the entire night wif u on your birthday..thx for ajak me to ur chalet wif syafinas,hadi,syahid and hakim..they are very nice companions..nw,i noe why u call them brudders..[although most of it is ur adik-beradik..haha..so lame of me..

hw i wish i cld jz spend the entire day wif u on ur special day...haiz..

to cut it short..its jz that im missing u nw and I LUP U..haha..

haiz..2day quite sian jgk ar..alek frm chalet den kene halau umah frm my nenek cz i tonn pat chalet..sedih woo kene halau...

only god noes hw heartbroken i am..huhuhu...

den nxt week aru dpt jumpe Rashid..only get to meet him once a week..soo sad.. :(

kk..tats all ok?..dah ngantok ar..wanna sleep..nites!..

adios.amegos.peace

haiz...

2009-06-15T09:25:00.002+08:00

i really dunno wat to do nw.. something happened last thurs...and its a big one..it really had a big impact on me..i tink im really scared and paisey and im feeling really bad for shafeeq and rizal nw..i couldnt forgive myself till they really say that they forgive me straight in my face..i really dont wanna lose shafeeq nw..he has taught me alot of tings..gd ones..and i really treasure those..i really hope shafeeq would forgive me and we cld be like the times wen we first knew each other..haiz...

adios.amegos.peace

What A Day Today..

2009-06-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

HAIYO...
i dunno wat else to say...tadi i went to meet Rizal and Shafeeq..at that time i was totally hoping it would be like the normal lpk2 kinda tingy cz while waiting 4 Shafeeq me n Rizal are playing cards..mcm biase je ar..den Shafeeq came with masam muke..den i ask him like a normal fwen would ask lar..i ask him wat happened?..he diam je..den after he sits down he started scolding me..he asked me wat was my purpose saying him kental..bt my intention was jz a joke sey..den he was getting serious..and i was getting mre pissed off with him bt i maintain cool..i tried to laugh in order to tahan marah..bt in end i merajok ar..i was about to leave the place wen sumting stopped me..he said all the things he scold me was jz a joke..and i was damn pissed off wen i heard tat cz its nt the 1st time he did tat to me..its like almost everytime wen we meet he would do that to me..and it's really annoying tau..so..ape lagi the anger was already outta my control and i threw my bag on the floor and started shouting at him..i scold him saying that i dont like him doing tat to me...and i said the word "fuck"to him for the first time..and tat was the first time he seeing me getting really angry and damn it was in the public..nt only his maruah jatuh..it was also mine and innocent Rizal's..i pity Rizal cz tk psl2 dier skali kene angkut malu..haiz..nw i dunno wat to do..i've already apologized to the both of them..i hope they will forgive me and forget about wat happened..haiz..why they test me until like this sey..tk baik sungguh..aku rase kalo gini lar carenye si Shafeeq nk test pompan..aku tk sanggup lagi..aku lebih rela jadi kwn dier nw..den aku menyesal ltr bab i noe he's a big ego..nt big..GIGANTIC one..aku menyesal..pasrah dan redha..aku dah tk sanggup lagi...i'm gonna leave him as it is..eventhough its gonna be hard..i still have to move on..Shafeeq,if u r reading this..i jz wanna say sori..and thx for everything..the only thing i want frm u nw is my headband back..tk sanggup aku nk kasi org barang aku pada org yg telah aku malukn depan masyarakat..bye Shafeeq..gonna miss u..

adios.amegos.peace

In Total Confusion!!

2009-06-10T22:15:00.007+08:00

a make-up i do by myself..hehe..lawa kn aku??..haha

me n nina going to camwhore..hahaha

me in nina's room..feeling bored..

i no like tis pic cz tk lawa..hahaha..

ARGH!!!!!SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! i really dont know what to type nw cz many things are running thru my head.. 1)Shafeeq says he jz wanted to be my member..so with a sad heart i said ok.. 2)i gt to noe Shafeeq fwen named Rizal..at the same time Jae said her fwen want to knl2 with me and his name is Rashid.. 3)met Rashid jz nw..gt to know him mre..he's qiute cute bt he likes sporty gals..bt i'm nt..i like guys who play guitar..bt he doesnt..so,its like the total opposite lor..haiz..bt he's a very nice guy..i like.. 4)jz a few minutes ago..Shafeeq asked me whether i syg him or nt..so i jz say tis"i tot u said we are members?"...den he said something like"u'll neva noe wats up my sleeves..u'll neva noe till i tell u straight outta my mouth.." 5)WHAT SHLD I DO??.....STRESSED SEY...hmmm....

finally gd news..i've gt my period..hahaha..sooo..happy...weeeee.....

adios.amegos.peace

BTW..HAPPY BELATED 24TH BIRTHDAY TO ABG HIDAYAT!!

2009-05-31T22:36:00.002+08:00

happy belated birthday Hidayat!!!
tis pic is the most memorable pic of me and him..haha..we are nt couple ehk..sowie ciket dier ade mataer and i have mine ok...
tis pic was the first pic of us together..and it was the first pic tat i've took in my phone..
tis pic was more than a year ago..it was at Sunplaza park..the most memorable place for me..
that place is the only place that i find peace...hah!

adios.amegos.peace

Annoyed.Anger.Peace

2009-05-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

Annoyed~by ny father who keeps scolding innocent ppl and i'm going to sch empty cash for the third week..reason??my father lost his atm card..FUCK LAH!!!

Anger~have to clean the entire hse again..and i have to do it ALL ALONE...
WTF!!!!!

Peace~my granny is back..wohoo!!hoping everything will be back to normal..tired of tis new life...cant imagine doing tis everyday man...

dats all..i've broke my record of the shortest blog i've done..haha..

adios.amegos.peace

Pics Of The Pranks On Ah Hui..LOL!And Introducing My Friends In Sch...

2009-05-28T23:38:00.008+08:00

did u see her facial expression?..i was convincing her at tat point of time..telling her to go to cdc to make a report on theft..wakaka!!tk leh tahan..Jae is holding on to her laughter..hahaha..

~Jae is about to take her bag while Ah Hui sleeps..hahaha..
~happy cz gt her bag silently..hahahaha...

the first photo on right~[frm right] Jae,Syifaa,Mai..
second photo on left[frm right]
ME,Mai,Syifaa,jae,Huda

Happy Birthday To Me[x5]

2009-05-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Today..is my birthday..my 18th birthday..cant believe it that i'm tat old already..i jz felt like i was 10 yrs old last yr..haiz..time really flies by really fast..that we can hardly recognize it..

ok..i'm going to tell you about what happened today..it was both enjoying,fun and saddening and frustrating..

the enjoying and fun part was..everyone that i'm close to wished me birthday today..i am soo happy that i gt a lot of msges today..haha..den..during break..me,Huda and Jae kacau Ah Hui..haha..it was damn funny lor..we were bored at tat time so we decided to kacau her ar..she was sleeping at tat time..we were at the 3rd level..where there are a lot of seats and tables..this Ah Hui was about 2-3 tables away frm us..Jae sneakly took her bag and hide it beside me and cover it by putting her bag on top[it was my idea..haha]..den,we called her out..hoping tat she would notice tat her bag is already missing..tpi si bangau ni blh sambung tido alek..[dasar lar ni budak..]den we laughed like hell cz she didnt realise her bag was missing..haha..soo blur of her..den it was time to go back to class..Jae woke her up telling tat its time to go back to class liao..den me and Huda step packing2 bag..haha..pandai plk kite berlakon..haha..Huda was laughing already wen she saw Ah Hui like a sotong searching for her bag..she cannot tahan den she go behind the wall and laugh but silently ar..so left me and Jae to handle her..den Ah Hui came to us..she said in a very irritating manner"girls..i tink my bag is stolen..do u see anybody taking it?.."den her face was like almost crying already..jae dah tk sampai hati..bt i still continue to layan her..i say"eh?alamak..like tis u hav to go down to cdc to make report u noe..becoz i didnt see anyone taking ur bag jz nw.."..AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..[ni mcm blh menang pesta perdana awards sey] mati2 dier percaye my words...pastu Jae cannot take it anymore den she tell lar tat her bag was under her bag..AHAHA..Jae2..spoil my plan je nk berlakon..AHAHAHA!!!!den her face berubah gile..me and huda dah pat lift and were laughing and laughing..while Jae was still talking to her..
the other fun part was..in the mrt while going hm..there is this CD officer standing in front of me..at first i was like"wth are they doing here..blergh..kalo hensem2 tkpe jgk..haha"[no jelousy eh my shafeeq] den i saw something that really catches my eye and it quite of disturbing for me cz its funny..haha..
guess wat i see?..
that time i accidentally looked at his pants..[i'm the type of person who like to look at people's dressing esp those wearing uniform..dunno y..hehe] den i saw his pants[the zip area] gt like a HUGE lump..den i was thinking.."amcm leh jdi gitu mcm eh?..all of his mates nye seluar ok jek.."den my mind ran wild for a moment..haha..bt i tink its true ar..i tink dier steam lar sey..HAHAHAHAHA!!!ape steam sey org2 pat mrt ni?...hahaha..i didnt get his name on the name tag well..it was shafi...something like tat..den in my heart"kiwak!!apa sia ni org?..ngah uat keje pn sempat steam ke?.."HAHAHA...den there is a huge urge in me to tell him tis tau.."eh abg,abg nye adk ternaik tau..turon kn ar..tk tau malu ke?.." i really felt like there is a need to tell him that sey..tpi tahan dok..all the way tahan..hahaha...wat a day!!

the saddening part and frustrating part was my sch ends at 5 sey..den all the lessons was like soo mendak..den i tot i get to meet Shafeeq and spend my bdae with him ar..tpi tk dpt dok..he's bz with projects and lgipn hujan..but it really irritates me wen he dont go to sch...he really make me angry sey..i dunno y i dont like ppl to ponteng sch..hmm..den..the worst came..wen i gt back hm..i was expecting like there is a surprise or wat ar..sekali tkde org pat umah sey..by tat time i was already frustrated wif Shafeeq cz he last min tk nk jumpe..wen i actually sanggup go to p.ris jz to spend my bdae wif him..back on track..wen i opened the door..i expected the hse to be cleaned..but it was the opposite..dishes are nt washed..the hse was in total mess..it was like hell..den wen i looked at the time,it was like only 30 min b4 ayah alek..den quickly i switched on my lappy den proceed wif the cleaning..wen i'm done wif the dishes,zaki and my 1st sis came back..they say "surprise!!" indeed i was already surprised b4 they even came..at that time i was in no mood already..dah tk leh tahan..ngan sume i jz be sacarstic..den my 1st sis ask the most stupidest ques"ko masak nasi eh?"den i jz say"dngr2 rumah ni masih ade beras pe?"den she ask me why i angry2..wah..like she dunno nothing gitu..dah tau serakkn rumah tpi tk tau kemas..rabak sey..den ayah oso ask me the same thing..bt tis time i really tried my best for my tone nt to be sacarstic or anger..i say"ayah,eton baru balik skola..eton tk sempat masak nasi"..den i cld feel the blood really gushing up..so i turn on to my imeem and listen to PERMAISURI BY OAG[my most fav band since i dunno wen..haha]it really calms me down sey..and i'm loving it..

ok..tats all..no pics tonite..sorry..
[to all the people who had wished me..i wanna thank you and to my class OR..thank you for singing to me the birthday song..heehe]

adios.amegos.peace

WOHOO!! It's my 18th birtday!!

2009-05-25T22:51:00.013+08:00

*a note to joey if u're reading..this guy wanna be ur fwen..haha...btw to KAI..thx for the night and treat...much appreciated yaw!

his highest score..haha

cn u see hw stressed he is when he's playing?..haha

the game that he played..

his second goal reaction..hahahaa.....

haha!!our first goal in the match!!haha

him being sad cz he lost the game..haha

i'm disturbing his concentrations..hahaha

him stressed coz he lost a game..haha

i'm happy today..but a lil stressed out..
and i cant believe that i cried b4 going to sch jz nw..
i cried becoz my period havent come and oso this is my 2nd time going to sch w/o money..
UWAA!!!!i dont even have a single cent in me sey..haiz...so i cried cz i have to starve for the whole week AGAIN..

next..i didnt buy swimming suit and didnt go to mustapha but instead i go to esplanade to meet up with my legendary bro..KHAIRUL..haha...
but b4 tat i go n meet Feeq 1st..talked about certain things then he sent me to vivo to continue my journey to esplanade..and he went hm..

upon reaching at the esplanade..i waited for Kai at the outdoor stage..wen i saw him..i was quite shocked coz he slimmed down a lil despite him being at hm all the time and eating non-stop..hahaha

den we sat down at the indoor stage..cz he is feeling hot and he's sweating..haha..den after tat..we proceed outside to have drinks and i accompanied him to smoke..den we chit chat abit..both of us drank the same thing tat is pineapple juice and we share a cup of sweetcorn..haha..
den we proceed to marina and decided to take a walk arnd dere but ended up playing in the arcade..haha..he played a soccer game while i jz take pix of him playing..haha..
[the pix are as the above..haha]
den we went to McCafe and bought drinks again..haha..he treat me 4 a drink tat i love the most tat is CARAMEL FRAPPE..wohoo!!i've been craving 4 tat a looonng time..
THANK YOU KAI!!YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON TO GIVE ME A DELIGHTFUL PRESENT!!
much appreciated yaw!!although it means nothing to you bt it means alot to me man!
den he send me to the bus stop till my bus arrived..it's like WAH!!soo generous..tk pernah ni mcm..haha...

den on my way back hm..my stomach was like bloated sey..jz imagine..pineapple mixed with caramel frappe mixed with corn..
alamak..the feeling ehk..cannot describe sey..wen i gt down the bus..feel like shitting+peeing+farting..
den i tried to walk faster ar so i cn reach hm fast,bt the faster i walk..the feeling become worst sey..CANNOT TAHAN LIAO!!
the moment i stepped into the hse..i aim for the toilet..bt only the pee came out nt the shit and i was disappointed cz dah tahan mcm nk mampos tpi tk kuar..mendak sey..
den the worst thing is wen i watched the tv tat my sister was watching,she was watching a women giving birth..in my mind was like"WTF!!i shall nt watch tis man.."haha..

kk..tat's all thats happening bout today..
btw..thx to ALL the ppl who had wished me..much appreciated.. :)
the eve of my birthday..haha..

Adios.Amegos.Peace.

BTW..THESE ARE THE LATEST PICS OF ME and introducing..shafeeq

2009-05-24T16:10:00.005+08:00

introducing..Shafeeq..

its been soo long...

2009-05-24T14:57:00.002+08:00

Wahh...its been soo long since the last time i blogged..hahaha..
A lot of things happened dude..i really mean alot tau..
kk..i'll tell u bit by bit..
but u have to bear with the long story ar..your eyes are going to get tired of reading for sure..haha..

the first thing that happened is that..a few days after i blogged about nizam..[i forget which one]..haha..well..he did called me..then he say not to talk to him or msg him anymore..i was sad at first but to think of it i dont mind..haha..cz i didnt love him that much..haha..so i jz said "ok..that's all?"then he put down the phone..hw rude..

the second thing is that my 1st sis dah balek!!i was always the first person to see her..i wonder why..hmm..i was happy to see her coming back home..but deep in my heart i was cursing her..u want to know why?..it's because she came back at the wrong timing..i was jz about to live my life as per normal w/o her and i was really happy bout it but when she came back..it was like disastrous...haiz..

next was a good thing..haha..i've known a guy named Shafeeq..we gt to noe thru tagged.com..at first sight i see him as a normal guy..we chat and chat den i decided to exchange no.s..hehe..soo cheeky of me..haha...den afew days ltr..we met..we met at simei..and the most embarassing thing is that i was wearing my sch uniform..hahaha..den..when i first called him..his voice was almost like nizam sey..blh bingit sak dngr but after awhile..i cn hear the differences..his voice is much more nice to hear than that cibai's voice..haha..[1st time sey maki pat blog]..haha..so..we met..when i 1st saw him..i was like and in my heart i was saying"alamak..not another mat rep ar..pls lar..i'm begging.."..hehehehe..it was really funny..my legs were shivering when i 1st met him..then we talked for a while and went off to courts megastore to eat..i was quite ashamed of myself when i rode his bike..nt becoz of his bike lar..but the way i was sitting..i still remembered the 1st time i rode a super4 wif nina and din and zul..they were all laughing at me badly..i was afraid that i was repeating the same mistake bt i didnt..fuh..selamat babe..haha..we ate fish and chips bt couldnt finish becoz we are shivering of coldness..DANG!i really mean it..its really cold sia!!den he said.."u noe wat?..u are the 1st girl that i ever fell in love jz by seeing ur pic..do u noe that?"i was like..WTH are u talking men?..i'm not going to fall 4 tat eh..hehe..den he said its true..bt i still doesnt believe it cz i'm not easily to fall 4 a man by his words..its by actions and feelings..after that we proceed to changi beach..and i called nyai and bluff her tat i'll be coming late coz ade project..haha..as per normal lar..she say ok..haha..den..the thing tat makes me gt feelings for him although it was our first time meeting was his words and his smile..i remember him saying that most girls normally fall for a guy because of his words and guys usually fall for a girl because of her personality and looks..bt i'm gonna prove him wrong man..i aint that women u're talking about dude..haha.. den something happened...i gave him his first kiss..the reason i gave him akiss is becoz i was starting to hav feelings for him at tat moment..and i want him to be mine..it was quite a funny situation to give him his first kiss..he was really funny..haha...den we proceed to pasir ris park..take a walk den go to his fwen's blk..and while he was on the phone with his fwen..he said the most sweetest thing i've ever heard that i felt like tearing..he asked his fwen something like this"wei,ko tau kn aku suke pompan pki headband kn?ko tau kn aku suke pompan rambot wavy kn?ko tau kn aku suke pompan ade taring kn?"and i guess his fwen said yes to all his ques..den he said"dier pat depan aku skrg.."i was like..WAH!!!REALLY EHK?[the facial expression only lar]haha..and at that point of time..i knew i will be in love with him sooner or later..[and i did now]..haha..soo..then he sent me hm and we kept seeing each other 4 the next 2 days..hahaha..amazing!..i met him 3 days in a row..haha..then in my mind was like"eh..dier ni tk muak ke tngk muke aku je..aku ni mane lar jambu mcm classmates aku..haha..tpi ok jgk..aku rindu jgk ngan dier..haha"that was soo lame of me..haha..i'm really missing him nw..huhu..he's werking for 16 hrs..i really pity him..well theres lot of him i wanna tell bt lazy ar..haha..jz give me a call if u wanna noe..haha...btw..my no 98812744 tau!!NOT 91189750..

the last thing is..my menses havent come yet!!!stress!!!!den no money..ayah told me he was broke..and i was also broke cz the sch money that was supposed he gave me, i gave to fatin..i was tottally annoyed with her at tat time and i dont wanna fight with her soo..i jz gave my money to her to shut her up..and indeed she shut up..so..the entire week i didnt have money ar..luckily my fwens are really good fwens..they gave me food and sometimes blanja me..haiz..[deep in my heart i know i will repay them..FOR SURE!! not forgetting my Shafeeq..i'll repay ur kindness too..love u lots..]lots of problem nw..haiz..wish i could meet Shafeeq and tell him everything..bt nvm..i understand his situation..tkkn nk jumpe hari2 kn..muak jgk..so..let there be kerinduan antara kita..haha..

btw..MY BIRTHDAY COMING!!haha..bt i dont intend to celebrate coz everyone is bz with their own things..i understand..i felt a lil bit kecik hati bt its ok...i'll cheer myself up..hehehe

ADIOS.AMEGOS.PEACE

The Moment I Had My Brains Out..

2009-05-07T21:17:00.003+08:00

Let me start with a laughter..AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
wah..really cannot stand it sey..last night,i really dont know where i exactly put my brain sey..fuyoo...i tot i brought it with me..skali tertinggal pat rumah lar...haiyo...
u guys might be wondering rite wat i'm exactly talking about..well here's the story..

in the morning..it was SW[sports wellness]some sort of P.E..at that moment i was wif Mai..den i wanted to go to toilet to changed my clothes lar..hw more stupid cn i be wen i forgot tat beside me was a staircase[like those in the stadiums]at tat moment i tot it was a flat floor so my legs were reaching out for the floor but then it was too late coz i already slipped but lucky2 me i didnt fall..wah..lucky sey coz at tat moment i was wearing skirt sey..hahaha...den..in the night..i went to amy's kolong blok to lpk wif Wan,Bong and Joey..den..while waiting i go to 7-eleven to buy some tidbits..den it took me like 20 mins to decide wat i want to eat sey..WTH!..den i decided to take gummiess..gummy bear!![not bibir eh Joey!!]hahaha..den proceed to the blok and we lpk..it started out well..den we saw Wan riding his KR..haha[its a piyo2 bike actually]hahaha....den they play cards as usual and i watch..den we changed game but still using cards..we play a game called 99..ahaha..and my maths was really bad..terserlah dok..malu sey..the card shows no 7 but i was confused it with another card that is no 8..and with full confidence i said the total no. of the game..den Wan kacau..he said"wah..dulu2 zaman batu..no. ni[7] jadi no 8 pe..ahahah..and we all had a great laugh at my stoopidity..hahaha..den after a few rounds..we changed game..we play R.O.C.K rock!!..ahaha..this is another stoopidity of me..i was about to say nama2 binatang but den with aslip of a tongue..i asked them to namakn nama2 unta!!OMFG!!!wat is wrong with me!!hahaha..where is my brain sak!!haha..den time check and go home..wee...den sleep...

thats all..

adios amegos.peace

what to do??

2009-05-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

today was a random day....nothing much had happened..went to sch..expecting to be late but ended up jz in time..hahaha...lucky2 me!! today..Huda and Katrina couldnt come..Kat is sick..she had a throat infection..pity her..hmm..huda??..i dunno.. :)den everything went as per normal..nothing much..

it was wen Jae opened up a topic about BF's..OMG!!! i really dunno wat to say seh...so i jz kept quiet and sit one side while hearing their fascinating stories of their bf...its amazing that Mai is having a 4 yr relationship..i envy her and her guy..they are very compatible together..den Jae talked about his guy..she meet him everyday..its like wow..sanggup sey bf dier turon stakat nk antar dier balik skola..hmm..den they asked me if i had bf or not..i could feel like as if someone stapled my mouth wen they ask me that coz i really dont know hw to ans them..so i jz told them its complicated..then they were like "ok.."

den in LLA class..picture time..instead of listening to the lecturer..we took pics and chat..we cant stand the thing that she is talking craps about mind map..den we kpo2..look at other peoples pics in their phones..Mai saw a pic of Nizam which i downloaded for no reason w/o his permission..hehe..its for me to "lepaskn rindu"lar..den she asked me who is he..and i was like..inside my heart i said "oh shit!!wat to do??..wat to do??"den i jz twll them the truth lar..i told them that he was my bf..now verryy the jarang contact..msg pon tidak..ape lagi nk call..haiz..meet up??..sampai tahun depan pn tk dpt lar...oh shit!..i jz remembered that he's gt anugerah's audition last sat or sun..i dunno..i wonder if he had made it thru..hmm..well cant contact cz ppd habis..haiz..oh ya..he's going to Taiwan on 28th may..OMG!!!i dunno wat to do.. i hope he'll be fine dere..gonna miss him loads...i guess i'll top-up my phone 2mrw and see if he'll reply my msges..harap dier dah tk marah2..hmm..

k lor..til here only..wanna sleep cz 2mrw gt SW..haiz!!!

adios.amegos.peace

Sorry For The Delay..

2009-05-04T00:46:00.003+08:00

First of all..sorry coz not updating for a loooonngg time..hehe..
gonna tell you everything that happen to me..so bear ith it if its too long for u to read..peace

Now..i no have any band coz syaz found a new band and there's no more moments of indulgence..its a history..but i appreciate his willingness to make my song..and i hope he would success with his new band..

Life in ITE quite disturbing for me coz i dont normally talk in sch unless my babe was there..well u cn call me watever u want..anti-social girl,quiet girl..etc..i dont mind..but never call me names that are not true..such as stoopid..i cant accept that although i know i'm slow at certain things..but that doesnt mean i'm stoopid rite??..haiz..projects and presentation are now part of my life and i have to live with it for the whole yaer or more..[only god knows]..hmmm

Talking about fwens..last night me,Joey,Wan,Amy and Bong went out to eat at makansutra and it was Joey's treat..thx Joey..i owe u gal..then,Joey introduced to me to a girl named Nazrina i guess..[STM strikes..haha] she was a fine gal and very cool..i admire her..den we go to karaoke..this part abit sensitive..coz i felt quite bad during this time coz i have no voice and yet i sing a lot of songs..my voice is really terrible..and i swear i will never go karaoke again unless i am the one who insisted on going..if i go..i definitely wont sing thru the mic again..SERIK!!haha..

About Nizam...hmm..i dunno whether he is really busy..but i think positive and take sastra's advice to juz wait for him coz i might not know that he's still in love with me..although it do really seems like he's avoiding me..but when i see his journal in tagged..i know he still loves his ex fiancee and not ready to let her go..all i could do is wait..wait till he's over with that feeling...but if he really do not love me anymore..PLEASE..PLEASE Nizam Baby..tell me straight in my face..it will only hurt me a little if u tell me now,rather than i wait for u forever and u never came to me..i too have a life to go on..i waited for his call every night..his msges in every minute..but..nothing..i know..i'm a girl not of his taste..i'm too stoopid for him..too blur for him..too childish for him..i'm unstylish..and definitely..i dont even have the criteria like any of his exes...haiz...what a girl i am..sometimes i feel stoopid waiting for him every second..BUT..deep inside..i know it will be worth it waiting..cz..he's the prince that i dreamt of..he is exactly the guy that appears in my every dream that i dreamt of..he is the guy that i told my girlfriends of that keep appearing in my weird dreams..i hope all those could be true..Last word for my baby dear nizam..I Love You..i'll wait for your msges and call everyday..muah!

Last but not least..its about Nyai and Pak Busu!!wohoo..good news to share..Nyai is going to umrah this 16 May..sadly the day after Zaki bdae..wakaka!!Nyai..Eton doakn semoga perjalanan Nyai pergi dan balik ke Mekkah dan dari Mekkah selamat..AMIN..Pak Busu plk..is going to get married nxt yr!!wohoo..congrats Pak Busu!!Nyai and anak beranak will go meminang this 9 May..wow!..the hantaran is $8000..quite good price for an undergraduate of NTU..hmm..semoga jodoh Pak Busu and kak dian or jihan[STM liao..haha]kekal smpi ke anak cucu..dan pernikahan Pak Busu aman dan lancar..AMIN..

ADIOS.AMEGOS.PEACE :)

The Beginning..

2009-04-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

Hello to the people reading this..
This is the first time blogging so..Not much yet to say or do..Yes I know that this blog is plain..It is still under reconstruction..Soo...Bear with it for a moment or two..

Btw..This blog will be an official blog for my upcoming band named Moments Of Indulgence which is doing a line-up for bassist and rhythmist..Haiz..

This will also be the place where I can tell people what I'm feeling and doing in the day..

Hmm..I guess that's all I wanna tell..soo..Cya soon..

adios.amegos.peace.