well..lets basically start with what happened recently..
well i fought wif ris on msn..as expected..both kpale batu and me wif my total ego..i really mean darn effing ego u noe..if im angry wif sum1 i wouldnt care abt the world or myself or worse other ppls feelings..as long as i get to say what i think would be ok for me..see..thats a darn big ego rite?..haha..told ya!..then after that i duno y i just dont feel like saying sorry..i feel im nt ready yet..cz im the type of person who owaes says sorry sincerely..i will never say sorry in a sarcastic way unless that person deserves it..hmm..see,thrs another effing big ego side of mine..haha..cn say after breaking wif my baby rash..i bacame an egoistic women..i duno whr tat came frm..i tink..its thru the bad experience i've gone thru..oh well..it sucks to live as a women u see..hmm...
back to topic,initially ris says sorry 1st..but then i told her the truth y i dun apologise..i guess she understand..hmm..kalo tk phm pon tkpe..aku tk kisah...well..im soooooooo used to ppl hating me..oh well..cn say the whole class is nw against me..haha..hw that came abt..i dunno the main prob..i dunno if tats me,my ego or mahirah's fault...hmm...lantaklah..i really dun care abt sch animore..all i noe is i came to sch to study..and ace my exams..nt make frens..haha..[tat is totally wat i said to myself on the 1st day of sch] and it came true..haha..funny huh?..start sch wif no one..ending sch wif no one too..cool huh?..
talking abt things coming true..a dream of mine came true..that is abt wan..i dunno y..hmm...but im still hoping the dream abt me talking to syg feeq came true..im still looking forward to talking to him..i missed the way he talks,the way he stands..and the way he treats me..haha..he's a funny guy..he a great guy too u noe..the gd thing abt him is..he teach ppl in a hardway..he tot me ilmu sabar thru breaking up wif me..haha..tats the cool thing..i didnt expect he wld teach me such a gd moral lesson..no one has ever tot me in that manner..tats y the impact of me remembering him is strong..he did a great deed for me..well..lets move on to next topic..
well..tats the downs of my life for the past few mnths..nw is the ups..haha..
this part is all abt me n sham and a gal named raidah..
well..me n sham is getting closer as days pass by..hmm..altho gt abit gado2 syg..we still "love" each other..raidah..hmm she's a sweet young lady..same age as mine..in ite bishan in biz admin course..she stayed in amk..we met like last fri..for the first time..haha..she tot i was taller than her..haha..impossible!..but it really shows my skills of photography is improving..alhamdulilah!
she den introduced me to her fren named athiyah..[hope i spelled correctly]haha..we den proceed to west coast..the MacD was darn lawa lah...seriously...the beach sux but the MacD is great..i dun feel like getting out wen i was in the MacD..haha..den yestd we met again..but w/o athiyah..we met in amk..den sham sent me to rumah nina..but b4 all tat happens..wen me n him were otw to amk..we took the bus to save money..hehe..we enjoyed our 1 hr plus ride soo much..we luaghed alot and talked alot...haha..we make faces at each other..nt forgetting the hugs..haha..i like hugging him..it feels sooo warm..its like the 1st time wen i hug baby rash wen we were in love..full of warmth..it really gives me the confidence and security..cn say im in love wif him but i just dun wanna confess it..im waiting for him..hehe..i wanna see hw long cn i last like tis..the gd thing is we didnt want to celebrate anything if we were to be tgt..except bdae tho..haha..hmm..tis is the secret part..if u read juz keep it to urself tau..dun tell any1..kalo tk..tabok ar!!hehe..
well..eventually wen we reached pat bwh blk nina..we had kisses..his lips was sooo soft..omg..i immidiately cair sey..tros steam..haha..in my mind was like.."carass me..carass me.."haha..but i couldnt give him my sexiest kiss..cz gt ppl pass by..busted!..haha..den wen no one arnd.we kissed again..tis time lgi best..he hugged me soo close to him tat my pussy was rubbing against his dick..[habislah..lgi steam lah aku..]haha..and..he start touching my breast..my mind says"yes.."but outside i say "no..."haha...temptation sey..den..he took my hand and put it at his dick..apelagi..i rub lor..otak dah senget sey..steam gile siot..hehe...[notty2 me..]so...after that we went apart..i go up..he go to yck mrt..hmm..missed him..n in my head was all abt his kiss the whole night..huhu...the lips..oni if i get to kiss again..haha..
aite2 ppl..i gotta proposal to do..monday dah nk kene pass up siot..still havent do gantt chart n schedule seh..gtg ppl..bye sume..syg krg...
adios.amegos.peace
