STRIKE OUT!!!!

strike him out bebeh!!!
who??
A guy name Syafiq Salim Lor....
He's outta my list...
buahahahahaha!!!!!!!

So,nw...left with Muhd Shamssuzaman...hmm...
conclusion..????
i dunno...he's a gd guy..met him once oni...tu pon tk smpi 1 hr..
wakakaka!!...
fell for him?...i guess so..i dunno..haiz..
hmm...we r still talking tho..even after i said i liked him..
[tu cume testing jek eh..hw setia a fren cn be]hehe...
:)
so,...ntah lar..

den..lately kn,my dreams sume nye weird2 seh..
[not kotor ones lah]
lately kn..i dream of the future..wat is goin to happen..scary seh...
hmm..i duno ehk..

oh ya..lastly tat i wanna post abt..
the number 18!!!
this no. has been freaking me out since the start of my bday...
this no sort of brings bad luck..
the no. 18 stands for..ME BEING ILL..I WILL HAVE AN ILLNESS SOON..
i dunno wat the illness will be but most prob a CYST wld develop in me..
its sort of a "keturunan" thingy...my sis gt it wen she was 18..my cuzzie gt it wen she was 18..me??..i dunno..i want 19 faster..tkt seh.....i dun want operations!!!!!

Peace.Love.Serenity

rain that makes me smile..

today..did ntg much..i'm juz loving MDP mre as days pass...

but..i didnt came for our project presentation in the morn...i cant..gt my own reasons..

things are getting worse for me nw...
ppl in the sch has realised that im getting much mre quieter..i dun talk much recently..dun hav the mood to talk..cz their topic is jz the same..over and over..all abt boys..bf's..i hate it wenever they talk bout tis...cz i hv totally ntg to talk abt..n i dun like to interupt them talking..so,i jz kept quiet lor..den they tot i gt probs..haiz..hw cn i ever explain it to them..

my mental wellness is getting worse...im nt studying..i kept thinking..thinking of wat oso i dunno..but most of it was abt my past..esp..shafeeq..i do really miss him..sumtimes i jz wished that i cld bump into him n talk to him..but wat shall i talk wif him abt?..den..dere goes syafiq..n sham..but i cn put them aside...no probs..
i think..yestd n today i hv a major mental breakdwn..yestd..i forgot to zip my skirt..i only realise wen mai tegur..den i was thinking.."MAK OOIIII!!!TADI KN AKU DARI JRG..APE?..TAT MEANS AKU NAIK TRAIN..NAIK BUS TK ZIP SKIRT??MAK!!!MALU NYE AKU!!!PATOTLAH BERANGIN JE PANTAT AKU..HAHAHHAA!!"
tat was yestd..today..worse..i tot i wld come for the 2nd lesson..so,i came at 915..skali..i came to class..no one was there..i was wondering lar...den i look at timetable..and i said to myself"btol perb class..tpi asal tkde org eh?.."so i go wondering the whole of that 5th lvl and 6th lvl searching for my class..tpi tkde so,i waited till the nxt lesson lah which is 2 hrs later..haiz..so,i went to eat at cafe 2..den lpk pat lvl 2 nye study corner..skali..abt 1hr 15min ltr..the geng came..den i asked..whr is the last lesson held...they say "the same class lor"den i said lah"mane ade..tadi aku dtg 915 tkde org pon..class kosong seh.."den jae said"mestilah..class start kul 10 tau.."den i was like "ehk?..iyeke?"i looked at the timetable and there it was..stating the class start at 10..BOO-YAH! i said pelan2 ar"darn..bodoh nye gal..ape kes ngan aku niari ni??"..

thats all..hope u had a great day not like mine..hehe..
goin off to Capoeira nw!
Chaos!

Adios.Amegos.Peace

Hello AGAIN!!..haha

hie there..
[warning!!long blog coming up!!]

lets start..its been very long since i last blog..so..dah forget skit..hehe...

hmm my life nw quite sux in sch..the only days i'm coming back hm early is Mon & Fri's..haiz..den the modules nw..HAIYO!!non-stop projects which leads conflict among me n my cliques..[ape lah nasib..]den..only one thing gd..nw i hv a CCA..at last..and im gonna stick with it till i graduate..wanna know what is my CCA?..CAPOEIRA[a brazilian martial arts..] Weee!!!

nw..to my personal life..hmm..its difficult..Fatin mcm break her promise..wen she is in Vietnam..promise to jage Zaki wen come back sg lar..nk kemas & jage umah lah..tis lah..tat lah..but end up..NOTHING..(only tat she's werking nw,bt that doesnt make any diff!!) asik2 me..yg kene ulang alik teban & tamp..owaes me!!irritating sia..den wen i didnt kemas umah..she pandai plk nk marah org..bile dier tk kemas org tegur skit je melenting..haiz..[why do i hv sisters..why not brothers which are way better and understanding???]Cobaan beb..but Zaki nye perangai is nw improving..he seems to understand my sotuation and is helping me out alot..LOVE U AR BRO!![3 cheers for him!!Hip-Hop Hurray!!X3]

LOVE life?....hmm..i dunno eh..nw the only one that i like is Syafiq Salim...he has all the qualities that i needed...oh ya,abt the date in Night Safari wif him?..haha...damn great fun!..he gt hellish scared..haha...he gt shocked and shouted so0O loud..and me?..biase ar..ketawe kn dier aje lah..hahaha..he's sweet..oh ya..he nt only knows AtiQ..but also Muhsin[kwn rapat rashid -.-' & he knows Arfian..]wat a total small world..hw much smaller the world cn be?.. kk..back track....me n Fiq hv been cntacting for mre than a mnth nw..on last Sat he treat me to a movie..crite paranormal activity[not that scary ar..only last part]..i feel bad every time he treats me...yalah..im nt his galfriend mah...i shld hav paid for myself lor...nt only he treats me for a movie..he oso treats me for pastamania...Waduh...lagi serba salah...dah lar mahal...haiyo..nw i really owe him big..hmm..oh ya..i rmbred..tat time on his bdae..me n Lil Missy Ris Nurul gt him a shirt frm Recoil..a black shirt..and u noe wad??we sngaje pick for him which was at the display patung..haha...it looks nice on the dolly lor..so we pick..hehe..[soO LAME of us..haha]den..after he wore it..he said to me tat our present hit the rite spot..as in..he really wanted a black shirt..and wanted a recoil shirt..haha..BULLS-EYE BABE!!haha.. kk..back to hw i felt for him..[wah..jauh seh pergi my flash back..haha.. XD ] he is a sweet guy..i duno if he romantic or not lar..but for sure he do hav a darn gd voice which makes me melt for him much faster..nt only tat..he gt bods..he gt hearts..he is patient..he is funny...well..simple to say eh..he's a complete set of wat i needed in a guy..[nt forgetting he wears specs sumtimes!!hehe..I LIKE!!]..(ya ampun!!merepek aje aku ni..haha)

klah..enuf is enuf eh gal..dun write too much..org malas nk bace..haha..aite2..see u guys soon.. oh ya!! I MISS MY BRO ANGZ..[esp BangKai,Sas,Shaz and Abg Adk Yat!]
bye u guys...cya soon yaw!![insyallah tkkn tulis lagi..haha..kidding2]
chao!


btw,thx Fiq..and yes..i'll wait..[muktamad!]

adios.amegos.peace.