BTW..HAPPY BELATED 24TH BIRTHDAY TO ABG HIDAYAT!!

happy belated birthday Hidayat!!!
tis pic is the most memorable pic of me and him..haha..we are nt couple ehk..sowie ciket dier ade mataer and i have mine ok...
tis pic was the first pic of us together..and it was the first pic tat i've took in my phone..
tis pic was more than a year ago..it was at Sunplaza park..the most memorable place for me..
that place is the only place that i find peace...hah!

adios.amegos.peace

Annoyed.Anger.Peace

Annoyed~by ny father who keeps scolding innocent ppl and i'm going to sch empty cash for the third week..reason??my father lost his atm card..FUCK LAH!!!

Anger~have to clean the entire hse again..and i have to do it ALL ALONE...
WTF!!!!!

Peace~my granny is back..wohoo!!hoping everything will be back to normal..tired of tis new life...cant imagine doing tis everyday man...

dats all..i've broke my record of the shortest blog i've done..haha..

adios.amegos.peace

Pics Of The Pranks On Ah Hui..LOL!And Introducing My Friends In Sch...

did u see her facial expression?..i was convincing her at tat point of time..telling her to go to cdc to make a report on theft..wakaka!!tk leh tahan..Jae is holding on to her laughter..hahaha..

~Jae is about to take her bag while Ah Hui sleeps..hahaha..
~happy cz gt her bag silently..hahahaha...













the first photo on right~[frm right] Jae,Syifaa,Mai..
second photo on left[frm right]
ME,Mai,Syifaa,jae,Huda

Happy Birthday To Me[x5]

Today..is my birthday..my 18th birthday..cant believe it that i'm tat old already..i jz felt like i was 10 yrs old last yr..haiz..time really flies by really fast..that we can hardly recognize it..

ok..i'm going to tell you about what happened today..it was both enjoying,fun and saddening and frustrating..

the enjoying and fun part was..everyone that i'm close to wished me birthday today..i am soo happy that i gt a lot of msges today..haha..den..during break..me,Huda and Jae kacau Ah Hui..haha..it was damn funny lor..we were bored at tat time so we decided to kacau her ar..she was sleeping at tat time..we were at the 3rd level..where there are a lot of seats and tables..this Ah Hui was about 2-3 tables away frm us..Jae sneakly took her bag and hide it beside me and cover it by putting her bag on top[it was my idea..haha]..den,we called her out..hoping tat she would notice tat her bag is already missing..tpi si bangau ni blh sambung tido alek..[dasar lar ni budak..]den we laughed like hell cz she didnt realise her bag was missing..haha..soo blur of her..den it was time to go back to class..Jae woke her up telling tat its time to go back to class liao..den me and Huda step packing2 bag..haha..pandai plk kite berlakon..haha..Huda was laughing already wen she saw Ah Hui like a sotong searching for her bag..she cannot tahan den she go behind the wall and laugh but silently ar..so left me and Jae to handle her..den Ah Hui came to us..she said in a very irritating manner"girls..i tink my bag is stolen..do u see anybody taking it?.."den her face was like almost crying already..jae dah tk sampai hati..bt i still continue to layan her..i say"eh?alamak..like tis u hav to go down to cdc to make report u noe..becoz i didnt see anyone taking ur bag jz nw.."..AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..[ni mcm blh menang pesta perdana awards sey] mati2 dier percaye my words...pastu Jae cannot take it anymore den she tell lar tat her bag was under her bag..AHAHA..Jae2..spoil my plan je nk berlakon..AHAHAHA!!!!den her face berubah gile..me and huda dah pat lift and were laughing and laughing..while Jae was still talking to her..
the other fun part was..in the mrt while going hm..there is this CD officer standing in front of me..at first i was like"wth are they doing here..blergh..kalo hensem2 tkpe jgk..haha"[no jelousy eh my shafeeq] den i saw something that really catches my eye and it quite of disturbing for me cz its funny..haha..
guess wat i see?..
that time i accidentally looked at his pants..[i'm the type of person who like to look at people's dressing esp those wearing uniform..dunno y..hehe] den i saw his pants[the zip area] gt like a HUGE lump..den i was thinking.."amcm leh jdi gitu mcm eh?..all of his mates nye seluar ok jek.."den my mind ran wild for a moment..haha..bt i tink its true ar..i tink dier steam lar sey..HAHAHAHAHA!!!ape steam sey org2 pat mrt ni?...hahaha..i didnt get his name on the name tag well..it was shafi...something like tat..den in my heart"kiwak!!apa sia ni org?..ngah uat keje pn sempat steam ke?.."HAHAHA...den there is a huge urge in me to tell him tis tau.."eh abg,abg nye adk ternaik tau..turon kn ar..tk tau malu ke?.." i really felt like there is a need to tell him that sey..tpi tahan dok..all the way tahan..hahaha...wat a day!!

the saddening part and frustrating part was my sch ends at 5 sey..den all the lessons was like soo mendak..den i tot i get to meet Shafeeq and spend my bdae with him ar..tpi tk dpt dok..he's bz with projects and lgipn hujan..but it really irritates me wen he dont go to sch...he really make me angry sey..i dunno y i dont like ppl to ponteng sch..hmm..den..the worst came..wen i gt back hm..i was expecting like there is a surprise or wat ar..sekali tkde org pat umah sey..by tat time i was already frustrated wif Shafeeq cz he last min tk nk jumpe..wen i actually sanggup go to p.ris jz to spend my bdae wif him..back on track..wen i opened the door..i expected the hse to be cleaned..but it was the opposite..dishes are nt washed..the hse was in total mess..it was like hell..den wen i looked at the time,it was like only 30 min b4 ayah alek..den quickly i switched on my lappy den proceed wif the cleaning..wen i'm done wif the dishes,zaki and my 1st sis came back..they say "surprise!!" indeed i was already surprised b4 they even came..at that time i was in no mood already..dah tk leh tahan..ngan sume i jz be sacarstic..den my 1st sis ask the most stupidest ques"ko masak nasi eh?"den i jz say"dngr2 rumah ni masih ade beras pe?"den she ask me why i angry2..wah..like she dunno nothing gitu..dah tau serakkn rumah tpi tk tau kemas..rabak sey..den ayah oso ask me the same thing..bt tis time i really tried my best for my tone nt to be sacarstic or anger..i say"ayah,eton baru balik skola..eton tk sempat masak nasi"..den i cld feel the blood really gushing up..so i turn on to my imeem and listen to PERMAISURI BY OAG[my most fav band since i dunno wen..haha]it really calms me down sey..and i'm loving it..

ok..tats all..no pics tonite..sorry..
[to all the people who had wished me..i wanna thank you and to my class OR..thank you for singing to me the birthday song..heehe]

adios.amegos.peace

WOHOO!! It's my 18th birtday!!

*a note to joey if u're reading..this guy wanna be ur fwen..haha...btw to KAI..thx for the night and treat...much appreciated yaw!

his highest score..haha

cn u see hw stressed he is when he's playing?..haha

the game that he played..

his second goal reaction..hahahaa.....

haha!!our first goal in the match!!haha

him being sad cz he lost the game..haha

i'm disturbing his concentrations..hahaha

him stressed coz he lost a game..haha

i'm happy today..but a lil stressed out..
and i cant believe that i cried b4 going to sch jz nw..
i cried becoz my period havent come and oso this is my 2nd time going to sch w/o money..
UWAA!!!!i dont even have a single cent in me sey..haiz...so i cried cz i have to starve for the whole week AGAIN..

next..i didnt buy swimming suit and didnt go to mustapha but instead i go to esplanade to meet up with my legendary bro..KHAIRUL..haha...
but b4 tat i go n meet Feeq 1st..talked about certain things then he sent me to vivo to continue my journey to esplanade..and he went hm..

upon reaching at the esplanade..i waited for Kai at the outdoor stage..wen i saw him..i was quite shocked coz he slimmed down a lil despite him being at hm all the time and eating non-stop..hahaha

den we sat down at the indoor stage..cz he is feeling hot and he's sweating..haha..den after tat..we proceed outside to have drinks and i accompanied him to smoke..den we chit chat abit..both of us drank the same thing tat is pineapple juice and we share a cup of sweetcorn..haha..
den we proceed to marina and decided to take a walk arnd dere but ended up playing in the arcade..haha..he played a soccer game while i jz take pix of him playing..haha..
[the pix are as the above..haha]
den we went to McCafe and bought drinks again..haha..he treat me 4 a drink tat i love the most tat is CARAMEL FRAPPE..wohoo!!i've been craving 4 tat a looonng time..
THANK YOU KAI!!YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON TO GIVE ME A DELIGHTFUL PRESENT!!
much appreciated yaw!!although it means nothing to you bt it means alot to me man!
den he send me to the bus stop till my bus arrived..it's like WAH!!soo generous..tk pernah ni mcm..haha...

den on my way back hm..my stomach was like bloated sey..jz imagine..pineapple mixed with caramel frappe mixed with corn..
alamak..the feeling ehk..cannot describe sey..wen i gt down the bus..feel like shitting+peeing+farting..
den i tried to walk faster ar so i cn reach hm fast,bt the faster i walk..the feeling become worst sey..CANNOT TAHAN LIAO!!
the moment i stepped into the hse..i aim for the toilet..bt only the pee came out nt the shit and i was disappointed cz dah tahan mcm nk mampos tpi tk kuar..mendak sey..
den the worst thing is wen i watched the tv tat my sister was watching,she was watching a women giving birth..in my mind was like"WTF!!i shall nt watch tis man.."haha..

kk..tat's all thats happening bout today..
btw..thx to ALL the ppl who had wished me..much appreciated.. :)
the eve of my birthday..haha..

Adios.Amegos.Peace.

BTW..THESE ARE THE LATEST PICS OF ME and introducing..shafeeq

introducing..Shafeeq..

its been soo long...

Wahh...its been soo long since the last time i blogged..hahaha..
A lot of things happened dude..i really mean alot tau..
kk..i'll tell u bit by bit..
but u have to bear with the long story ar..your eyes are going to get tired of reading for sure..haha..

the first thing that happened is that..a few days after i blogged about nizam..[i forget which one]..haha..well..he did called me..then he say not to talk to him or msg him anymore..i was sad at first but to think of it i dont mind..haha..cz i didnt love him that much..haha..so i jz said "ok..that's all?"then he put down the phone..hw rude..

the second thing is that my 1st sis dah balek!!i was always the first person to see her..i wonder why..hmm..i was happy to see her coming back home..but deep in my heart i was cursing her..u want to know why?..it's because she came back at the wrong timing..i was jz about to live my life as per normal w/o her and i was really happy bout it but when she came back..it was like disastrous...haiz..

next was a good thing..haha..i've known a guy named Shafeeq..we gt to noe thru tagged.com..at first sight i see him as a normal guy..we chat and chat den i decided to exchange no.s..hehe..soo cheeky of me..haha...den afew days ltr..we met..we met at simei..and the most embarassing thing is that i was wearing my sch uniform..hahaha..den..when i first called him..his voice was almost like nizam sey..blh bingit sak dngr but after awhile..i cn hear the differences..his voice is much more nice to hear than that cibai's voice..haha..[1st time sey maki pat blog]..haha..so..we met..when i 1st saw him..i was like and in my heart i was saying"alamak..not another mat rep ar..pls lar..i'm begging.."..hehehehe..it was really funny..my legs were shivering when i 1st met him..then we talked for a while and went off to courts megastore to eat..i was quite ashamed of myself when i rode his bike..nt becoz of his bike lar..but the way i was sitting..i still remembered the 1st time i rode a super4 wif nina and din and zul..they were all laughing at me badly..i was afraid that i was repeating the same mistake bt i didnt..fuh..selamat babe..haha..we ate fish and chips bt couldnt finish becoz we are shivering of coldness..DANG!i really mean it..its really cold sia!!den he said.."u noe wat?..u are the 1st girl that i ever fell in love jz by seeing ur pic..do u noe that?"i was like..WTH are u talking men?..i'm not going to fall 4 tat eh..hehe..den he said its true..bt i still doesnt believe it cz i'm not easily to fall 4 a man by his words..its by actions and feelings..after that we proceed to changi beach..and i called nyai and bluff her tat i'll be coming late coz ade project..haha..as per normal lar..she say ok..haha..den..the thing tat makes me gt feelings for him although it was our first time meeting was his words and his smile..i remember him saying that most girls normally fall for a guy because of his words and guys usually fall for a girl because of her personality and looks..bt i'm gonna prove him wrong man..i aint that women u're talking about dude..haha.. den something happened...i gave him his first kiss..the reason i gave him akiss is becoz i was starting to hav feelings for him at tat moment..and i want him to be mine..it was quite a funny situation to give him his first kiss..he was really funny..haha...den we proceed to pasir ris park..take a walk den go to his fwen's blk..and while he was on the phone with his fwen..he said the most sweetest thing i've ever heard that i felt like tearing..he asked his fwen something like this"wei,ko tau kn aku suke pompan pki headband kn?ko tau kn aku suke pompan rambot wavy kn?ko tau kn aku suke pompan ade taring kn?"and i guess his fwen said yes to all his ques..den he said"dier pat depan aku skrg.."i was like..WAH!!!REALLY EHK?[the facial expression only lar]haha..and at that point of time..i knew i will be in love with him sooner or later..[and i did now]..haha..soo..then he sent me hm and we kept seeing each other 4 the next 2 days..hahaha..amazing!..i met him 3 days in a row..haha..then in my mind was like"eh..dier ni tk muak ke tngk muke aku je..aku ni mane lar jambu mcm classmates aku..haha..tpi ok jgk..aku rindu jgk ngan dier..haha"that was soo lame of me..haha..i'm really missing him nw..huhu..he's werking for 16 hrs..i really pity him..well theres lot of him i wanna tell bt lazy ar..haha..jz give me a call if u wanna noe..haha...btw..my no 98812744 tau!!NOT 91189750..

the last thing is..my menses havent come yet!!!stress!!!!den no money..ayah told me he was broke..and i was also broke cz the sch money that was supposed he gave me, i gave to fatin..i was tottally annoyed with her at tat time and i dont wanna fight with her soo..i jz gave my money to her to shut her up..and indeed she shut up..so..the entire week i didnt have money ar..luckily my fwens are really good fwens..they gave me food and sometimes blanja me..haiz..[deep in my heart i know i will repay them..FOR SURE!! not forgetting my Shafeeq..i'll repay ur kindness too..love u lots..]lots of problem nw..haiz..wish i could meet Shafeeq and tell him everything..bt nvm..i understand his situation..tkkn nk jumpe hari2 kn..muak jgk..so..let there be kerinduan antara kita..haha..

btw..MY BIRTHDAY COMING!!haha..bt i dont intend to celebrate coz everyone is bz with their own things..i understand..i felt a lil bit kecik hati bt its ok...i'll cheer myself up..hehehe

ADIOS.AMEGOS.PEACE

The Moment I Had My Brains Out..

Let me start with a laughter..AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
wah..really cannot stand it sey..last night,i really dont know where i exactly put my brain sey..fuyoo...i tot i brought it with me..skali tertinggal pat rumah lar...haiyo...
u guys might be wondering rite wat i'm exactly talking about..well here's the story..

in the morning..it was SW[sports wellness]some sort of P.E..at that moment i was wif Mai..den i wanted to go to toilet to changed my clothes lar..hw more stupid cn i be wen i forgot tat beside me was a staircase[like those in the stadiums]at tat moment i tot it was a flat floor so my legs were reaching out for the floor but then it was too late coz i already slipped but lucky2 me i didnt fall..wah..lucky sey coz at tat moment i was wearing skirt sey..hahaha...den..in the night..i went to amy's kolong blok to lpk wif Wan,Bong and Joey..den..while waiting i go to 7-eleven to buy some tidbits..den it took me like 20 mins to decide wat i want to eat sey..WTH!..den i decided to take gummiess..gummy bear!![not bibir eh Joey!!]hahaha..den proceed to the blok and we lpk..it started out well..den we saw Wan riding his KR..haha[its a piyo2 bike actually]hahaha....den they play cards as usual and i watch..den we changed game but still using cards..we play a game called 99..ahaha..and my maths was really bad..terserlah dok..malu sey..the card shows no 7 but i was confused it with another card that is no 8..and with full confidence i said the total no. of the game..den Wan kacau..he said"wah..dulu2 zaman batu..no. ni[7] jadi no 8 pe..ahahah..and we all had a great laugh at my stoopidity..hahaha..den after a few rounds..we changed game..we play R.O.C.K rock!!..ahaha..this is another stoopidity of me..i was about to say nama2 binatang but den with aslip of a tongue..i asked them to namakn nama2 unta!!OMFG!!!wat is wrong with me!!hahaha..where is my brain sak!!haha..den time check and go home..wee...den sleep...

thats all..

adios amegos.peace

what to do??

today was a random day....nothing much had happened..went to sch..expecting to be late but ended up jz in time..hahaha...lucky2 me!! today..Huda and Katrina couldnt come..Kat is sick..she had a throat infection..pity her..hmm..huda??..i dunno.. :)den everything went as per normal..nothing much..

it was wen Jae opened up a topic about BF's..OMG!!! i really dunno wat to say seh...so i jz kept quiet and sit one side while hearing their fascinating stories of their bf...its amazing that Mai is having a 4 yr relationship..i envy her and her guy..they are very compatible together..den Jae talked about his guy..she meet him everyday..its like wow..sanggup sey bf dier turon stakat nk antar dier balik skola..hmm..den they asked me if i had bf or not..i could feel like as if someone stapled my mouth wen they ask me that coz i really dont know hw to ans them..so i jz told them its complicated..then they were like "ok.."

den in LLA class..picture time..instead of listening to the lecturer..we took pics and chat..we cant stand the thing that she is talking craps about mind map..den we kpo2..look at other peoples pics in their phones..Mai saw a pic of Nizam which i downloaded for no reason w/o his permission..hehe..its for me to "lepaskn rindu"lar..den she asked me who is he..and i was like..inside my heart i said "oh shit!!wat to do??..wat to do??"den i jz twll them the truth lar..i told them that he was my bf..now verryy the jarang contact..msg pon tidak..ape lagi nk call..haiz..meet up??..sampai tahun depan pn tk dpt lar...oh shit!..i jz remembered that he's gt anugerah's audition last sat or sun..i dunno..i wonder if he had made it thru..hmm..well cant contact cz ppd habis..haiz..oh ya..he's going to Taiwan on 28th may..OMG!!!i dunno wat to do.. i hope he'll be fine dere..gonna miss him loads...i guess i'll top-up my phone 2mrw and see if he'll reply my msges..harap dier dah tk marah2..hmm..

k lor..til here only..wanna sleep cz 2mrw gt SW..haiz!!!

adios.amegos.peace

Sorry For The Delay..

First of all..sorry coz not updating for a loooonngg time..hehe..
gonna tell you everything that happen to me..so bear ith it if its too long for u to read..peace

Now..i no have any band coz syaz found a new band and there's no more moments of indulgence..its a history..but i appreciate his willingness to make my song..and i hope he would success with his new band..

Life in ITE quite disturbing for me coz i dont normally talk in sch unless my babe was there..well u cn call me watever u want..anti-social girl,quiet girl..etc..i dont mind..but never call me names that are not true..such as stoopid..i cant accept that although i know i'm slow at certain things..but that doesnt mean i'm stoopid rite??..haiz..projects and presentation are now part of my life and i have to live with it for the whole yaer or more..[only god knows]..hmmm

Talking about fwens..last night me,Joey,Wan,Amy and Bong went out to eat at makansutra and it was Joey's treat..thx Joey..i owe u gal..then,Joey introduced to me to a girl named Nazrina i guess..[STM strikes..haha] she was a fine gal and very cool..i admire her..den we go to karaoke..this part abit sensitive..coz i felt quite bad during this time coz i have no voice and yet i sing a lot of songs..my voice is really terrible..and i swear i will never go karaoke again unless i am the one who insisted on going..if i go..i definitely wont sing thru the mic again..SERIK!!haha..

About Nizam...hmm..i dunno whether he is really busy..but i think positive and take sastra's advice to juz wait for him coz i might not know that he's still in love with me..although it do really seems like he's avoiding me..but when i see his journal in tagged..i know he still loves his ex fiancee and not ready to let her go..all i could do is wait..wait till he's over with that feeling...but if he really do not love me anymore..PLEASE..PLEASE Nizam Baby..tell me straight in my face..it will only hurt me a little if u tell me now,rather than i wait for u forever and u never came to me..i too have a life to go on..i waited for his call every night..his msges in every minute..but..nothing..i know..i'm a girl not of his taste..i'm too stoopid for him..too blur for him..too childish for him..i'm unstylish..and definitely..i dont even have the criteria like any of his exes...haiz...what a girl i am..sometimes i feel stoopid waiting for him every second..BUT..deep inside..i know it will be worth it waiting..cz..he's the prince that i dreamt of..he is exactly the guy that appears in my every dream that i dreamt of..he is the guy that i told my girlfriends of that keep appearing in my weird dreams..i hope all those could be true..Last word for my baby dear nizam..I Love You..i'll wait for your msges and call everyday..muah!

Last but not least..its about Nyai and Pak Busu!!wohoo..good news to share..Nyai is going to umrah this 16 May..sadly the day after Zaki bdae..wakaka!!Nyai..Eton doakn semoga perjalanan Nyai pergi dan balik ke Mekkah dan dari Mekkah selamat..AMIN..Pak Busu plk..is going to get married nxt yr!!wohoo..congrats Pak Busu!!Nyai and anak beranak will go meminang this 9 May..wow!..the hantaran is $8000..quite good price for an undergraduate of NTU..hmm..semoga jodoh Pak Busu and kak dian or jihan[STM liao..haha]kekal smpi ke anak cucu..dan pernikahan Pak Busu aman dan lancar..AMIN..

ADIOS.AMEGOS.PEACE :)